We landed!

Well we made it! The flight went well, only took an hour. We were only able to get 5 games of uno in before we landed. So we are finally back home. I at my parents and Zac at his. Which sucks at night, because I'm a weenie and miss his presence in bed, but its ok.

We came home to a very nice welcome: a good ol' thunderstorm! That is one thing we dont get in Vancouver. We just get rain. Sometimes a big storm is nice. Everything is how I remember it, small towns never change. Not like its been that long but you'd think in 7 months they would have atleast done SOMETHING to start finishing fixing I-84.

Its a good morning. I woke up at 8 vancouver time, so not bad... wished I hadnt slept so long, but then I dont have a house to keep or errands to run, so I guess its not that bad. I just hate wasting a morning. Alright I have to eat somehting, just wanted to drop by and say Im still alive. :)

What a frusterating world.

Ok, there is either something wrong with me or something is wrong with the world. I am six months prego, I think I look pretty good and I still feel just about as sexy as I did pre-prego.  However, in my search for sexy lingerie for pregnant ladies.... apparently all anyone seems to think is that prego women want sacks. Or nursing bras. 

Hellllloooo world! I want something just as sexy as what got me to this pregnancy state!! And not just bra and undies sets that cover up EVERYTHING.  I want the lace, the vinyl, the erotic stuff, the g-string. Just because my bust is slightly larger and my hips have gotten a bit bigger and my belly is rounder doesnt mean I want to hide it from my husband!! 

Is it just me or do most women maybe not feel like "doing it"?? Is that the issue? Or do people just assume that pregnant women are tired all the time? Or am I just weird? 

Im getting frusterated. I'd like to think Im not wierd and just am enjoying myself like I think I should.  I just dont get it.

ABC's

A - Age: 23

B - Bed size: queen

C - Chore you hate: dishes

D - Dog's name: I dont own one

E - Essential start your day item: Prenatal. 

F - Favorite color: white

G - Gold or Silver: Silver

H - Height: 5' 3" 

I - Instruments you play(ed): Piano 

J - Job title: Wife, Mother, Housekeeper

K - Kid(s): One on the way

L - Living arrangements: I live with Zac 

M - Mom's name: Isabelle

N- Nicknames: Ha ha. you dont get to know that. Its classified

O - Overnight hospital stay other than birth: Never. Always outpatient

P - Pet Peeve: Anything loud. And a few others that i cnat think of right now

Q - Quote from a movie: Do it! And let the English see ya do it!!

R - Right or left handed: Right

S - Siblings: Skeeter

T - Time you wake up: 7 ish

U- Underwear: no commment.

V - Vegetable you dislike: brussell sprouts

W - Ways you run late: trying to think if im hungry or not.

X - X-rays you've had: teeth, arm...one more maybe?

Y - Yummy food you make: mexican lasagna.

Z - Zoo favorite: kitties. 

Sick again..

And what a better thing to do when sick? Go outside! It was about 80 degrees today so hubs took me to the Japanese garden in Portland to enjoy the sun. It was really pretty. My head is all fogged up still so im going to make this short. 

After that we drove to 23rd street and had lunch at a nice little hole in the wall pizza place our friends Lindsey and Joe showed us, then went down the street to have some tea. (which was disgusting.) I got one that was for sick people, and I seriously could have shoved a handful of peppercorns in my mouth and started munching. I didnt even get half way through the glass. Horrible taste. 

So we left and got lost (on purpose) in the Portland hills. That is where all the million and seems billion dollar homes are. Some are soooooo huge and then some are just way cool. Then came home and yes, I was still feeling like hell. Not to mention I felt pregnant too on top of sick. But Lindsey saved the day and brought me prego-safe meds and tea and holy crap!! I'm feeling so much better. Just still have a stuffy nose now. But oh man, I feel almost like a new woman. So now I am ready for bed. But its too early so Im just going to leave you with this post. 

I'm back!

Ok im back for a good solid post! I've finally got some time. Life has been a bit nuts lately, but we've been having fun! We've been hiking with our good friends Lindsey and Joe, shopping with Lindsey (just me, zac only goes shopping if it includes an outdoors shop.), I've been working 3 days a week, and in the rest of my spare time taking care of my house and my husband. 

Oh!! And I am thrilled to say I have found a hair stylist that does exactly what I want!! Wanna guess who?? MY HUSBAND  of all people! He noticed I had uneven and split ends the other night (ya i know. I looked at him like he grew a 2nd head) so I let him trim my layers last night. He did a perfect job. Even the perfect angle I told him to!! Hmmmm... maybe I can actually show him a photo of a style I want and he will do it... no other stylist has ever done what I want, even with a trim! I'll tell ya, this guy is a great cook, has a great asthetic eye, when he does get dressed you'd think he walked straight out of Milan and now he does hair... I married the perfect straight man :)

We've been hiking quite a lot lately, discovering new places almost every week now that the weather has been perking up. Here is a video of our latest hike and the boys latest shenanigans. We had a great time. Oh and we went to Popeyes afterwards... ya like non-greasy fried chicken? Holy crap, go there. The skin is even good.

And speaking of boys... we are having a little boy in September! We are so thrilled. We originally wanted a girl, and I had really felt it was a girl up until Monday at about 11 or so. I was folding laundry and all the sudden I got hit with "its a boy. " And then suddenly the boy concept that I had such a hard time wrapping my head around became perfectly wonderful and now even thinking that I was ever having a gir is so foreign to me. Zac got in on the ultrasound too, oh and to add to the perfectness?? He knows how to read the dang ultrasounds! Apparently they look just like blueprints. (huh?) He was pointing stuff out and referencing stuff while I was looking at a fuzzy rorsarch test. He figured out it was a boy before myself or the radiologist.  I'll tell ya, I learn something new about him every day. 

Im excited to go shopping now :) I'm doing good today, I stayed up after Zac went to work (6am)  and feel like I will finally get something done today! Oh and my girl Lindsey gave me a sack full of maternity clothes and I so totally lucked out because she is totally my size!! Oh i cant tell you how nice it is to be comfy again and cute and the same time. Im so glad they make maternity clothes that arent sack-like. Well, I did see some, but they've got nice things :)

We are in the process of trying to find a new apartment so we can get out of this mold-haven, and have a laundry room. And...drumroll....bring back my little Stinky kitty!! Only one of his foster parents like him, and I miss the little fuzzy dude so much. EEEEE!! And Zac said I can have him back!! (Perhaps he just needed a little break from 4 legs and teeth.)

We are going back home the first week of June, its coming up and I am feeling more and more unprepared. Lol, not in the clothes department though! (Thank you so much once more Linz!) I've got plane tickets to get, find an apartment before that, make sure we can make rent since we wont be there the first week, make sure the rest of the bills are paid....some days I wish Zac would take over the finances. But then I think I would go crazy because I wasnt in control of them. Lol, I dont know. 

Well, its 7am, time to start my day :) hope  ya'll have  a good one!

Its a boy!

We just found out we're having a baby boy! Sooo excited!

Adventures

So I betcha wonderin where I've been.... well... ahem... Ive been having wonderous, exciting adventures! Ya know the kind that leave your butt and calves soooo dang sore you think they will fall off? Ya. Friday we went up to Molton Falls, (our new fave place) and went hiking. Uphill. I'll tell ya thats the best exercise a prego woman can get!! Heres some pics:

We hiked about 7-8 miles... was absolutley beautiful! I love hiking :)  Saturday, we decided to drive up to the Ape Caves...hehe... well only

 to find out that there is still 5 feet of snow EVERYWHERE! We so would have trekked around if we had snowshoes. Once again, it was beautiful. There was a small boardwalk trail that took us around a bit that we went on. There were other trails but they were covered with snow and there were HUGE holes (see photob below) in the ground that we just didnt want to misstep into. Aparently those holes used to be trees a thousand years ago, b

ut Mount St. Helens  (which is right next to where we were) took care of them and left holes. Weird phenomena. 

So since the Ape Caves were a bust, we decided to Hey lets go to Olympia! (1.5 hours away) So we drove up, a very pretty drive by the way, and a nice straight shot up I-5. We got there about 2 or so, and we timed the weekend right because apparently Friday was Earth Day (who knew?) so there was a huge art/hippie fest right in the middle of town. We first went up to Pierce Point Park and toodled around (by toodling, I mean hiking) on thier trails, then we went to town. As night fell the streets got more filled and things were happening. There were so many bands!!! So many. We decided to go the gourmet route and dine at the BEST hotdog stand ever. Well, I 

got a hot dog (which later gave me heartburn, but water gives me heartburn so whatever) and Zac got a pulled pork sandwich. (I cant stomach BBQ sauce at this point.) We stayed until about 10:30 and joined in the Luminescence Parade, which was pretty fun. Then we decided, heck were here, so we found the cleanest Motel 6 I've ever seen and stayed the night. Then went back for more hiking in the early afternoon after breakfast. We were going to stay for the rest of the day, but it was raining and,.... if you scroll down, you will see that I was lacking footwear. While hiking that morning, we found a break in the trail that went through where the ocean normally is at high tide. Wll it was low tide so it was one giant mudflat.. hehe... guess who sank a bit. Oh and Zac? Not a spec of mud on him. I dont get it. 

Peruvian Flute Band  A Luminesence Figure Another one.

Attacked by a mud flat.            View from a bluff at the park

Weekend trip

This little guy was at the Portland Zoo, just looking around at something that was teasing him. I think I'd call him Lou if he were mine.  After church we went to the Zoo since it was REALLY nice (read: HOT) The zoo was enormous and wore us out completely. Thank goodness for Icees. 

We had to park about 2 miles away and walk. Uphill. However the 2nd photo is what we had to walk through. It was really pretty.

Saturday was a busy day too. We had fun this weekend! We are enjoying the warm weather and going out to do things. This weekend is supposed to rain though. Quite a bit Ive heard. 

We find out what Baby X is on May 4th, Im way too excited! So far it doesnt seem like Ive got much time for a post, I have to go get dinner started, but I will be back with something interesting sometime.

Short post.

It is a beautiful day out! Its also 10:30 already and my other half is still in bed. I am currently enjoying my breakfast and tea and thanking the Lord for His hand in my life. My hours got cut at work, meaning I will only be working Mon-Wed. (YAY!!!) I am so thrilled with that schedule, mostly because that means that my house will be clean once more! Not to mention I will get to work out in the daytime, and all the things that need to be done will get done. I am very pleased.

Not to mention its getting harder to bend over and my back is starting to hurt more and more.

Looks like we are headed home in June! (Yay again!) I am so excited to see everyone again, especially my little furry schmoo-kitty. And I will get to see my sister, since she will be on summer break. Ohhhh... and dads cooking!!! 

Ok this is being cut short. See you later. 

Baby update

Just got back from the docs... so far baby is doing well, Im doing well and we find out what exactly baby X is on May 4th. Cant get here fast enough!

Easter is here tomorrow

Easter is here in a day, and this is the first year I'm breaking tradition in 23 years or so. Traditionally, it would be my parents, my sis and I, grampa chuck and grama, or grampa chuck and bev (depending on what era you talk about), occasionally my aunt Tami whenever she lived nearby and my husband (in the most recent years) would go out to brunch on Easter morning. We would all get dressed up in our Sunday best, my sister and I would have new Easter outfits, and we would head to Shilo (in the early years) or Elmers (later on) for Easter buffet. There is nothing I enjoy more on Easter than to go to brunch with all my family. We'd spend a few hours talking and eating and then head back to the house, because the Easter Bunny came. Yes, even up until last year, the easter bunny still came.  And then the Easter stock market was open for business. My sister and I would do a fast paced trade for jellybeans vs. chocolate eggs. I didnt like some jelly beans and vice versa. Last year hubs got into it too.  And mom would eat the ears off our chocolate bunnies. (Mom tax.)

This year, we are away from family, and starting our own. So we are going to the Easter Service at our church, and then I will make Easter dinner.  For two people, it will be ok. I will re-start the tradition when Baby X is 2 or 3. So I have a few years or non-tradition. Oh well. As long as I get my deviled eggs and sausage, fine.

Easter is a very uplifting time of year anyways, He has risen giving hope and light to the world, and we have many things to be thankful for. Hope you all have a wonderful Easter day. 

A good quote about playing God..

"The human body comes with a marvelous ability to regulate its own appetites. Then we muck it all up with our ideas of what it should look like." - Harriet Brown

Read this

Im appalled, yet hardly surprised.

http://www.newsweek.com/id/191247

Brain Cells wherefore art thou? Please forgive me if this doesnt make any sense

I had an ingenious post in my head all day at work today. I kept mulling it over and re-writing it and lo and behold the second I got it perfect my pregnancy brain decided I didnt need it anymore and I really cant remember what in the world I was originally going to say. They say a pregnant womans brain actually shrinks in size during the 9 months (for whatever reason) and I believe it. The second you start growing a little human, all brain cells get transferred to your uterus, thus leaving me a complete and blithering retard.

I think it had something to do with faith, our topic to speak on in  a few weeks at church, and it did go along very well with the politics currently talking place at my work which is less that fun. More like migraine-inspiring. (the politics, not faith) But... since I have no brain cells..... its not affecting me that bad. So far the worst that has been happening is me forgetting things all over the place. Today I even locked my keys in my closet and had to go hunt for someone with a key to that door.

I started working out again since I started back in the work force. I feel pretty good. I am definetly happy I started again. Maybe getting some blood going back into my head will nourish whats left of the the little gray matter I have and make me a little less of an idiot. I really cant think right now, I'll write tomorrow.

Sailing kicks your patukah.

So. Sore. And. Tired. Cant. Move...Sailing really takes a lot out of you, especially when its cold and its an all day thing. Its a ton of fun, but when you finally get home and sit down its like someone just took the batteries out of your back. Energizer no more. We had a good time. Went out on a  last minute race, which was postponed, which was then cancelled. So all 60-some odd boats went back to thier slips, however we stayed out. Had the race waited another 30 minutes, we would have been fine because the wind picked up. We were out for 6 hours doing 9 knots. Thats pretty dang good. Im just ready for bed.

My "round ligaments" as they call them, are hurting like mad now though. Its not excruciating or anything like period cramps, its just sharp little stabbing pains that feel like they are 3-5 inches long and throbbing really really slowly. More irritating than anything else, but necessary for uterine and baby growth so I try to enjoy them. (although im not sure enjoy is the right word for that.)

I still feel like Im on the boat. Sitting down, I feel like I am rocking back and forth. Which means getting to sleep tonight is going to take for bloody ever. Still have to work on my talk for church that is coming up in a few weeks. Right now Ive got a jumbled mess of notes. Im sure I will pull through, I am just hoping I can articulate and speak slow enough to take up a half hour or more since hubs only wants to do 15 min of his half hour. Im sure I can come up with something good. 

Went shopping today. Actually, I should say I was forced to go shopping today. Baby Morris is now forcing me out of my normal clothes and into bigger sizes. Im not maternity just yet, but was able to find  a pair of jeans that look alright I guess and a dress that I think is actually rather flattering on my new-larger body. (Id say figure, but im not sure I have one anymore.) I am also pleased to know that the maxi dress is coming back into style. I tried one on and ooooohhhh the comfort!! It was such a soft jersey knit... I have to wait to get it just cuz its $25, but I can wait. Perhaps since they are coming into style this season I can find a little more modest one that I dont have to wear a jacket over or a shirt under. We'll see. So far the most comfy thing ever is sweats and a sweatshirt. However, I am refusing to turn into a shlumpadinka as Oprah so fittingly calls it. 

Still weighing the going blonde option... cant decide. I was a very nice shade of blonde for many years, then went back to my natural brown and some variations of it. The only thing that I didnt like about being blonde was the constant root upkeep (my hair grows freakin fast even not being prego) and no one takes you seriously. Ever. Oh and the blonde jokes? Dont start me on that one. Although when I had black hair, I couldnt get away from the Elvira jokes. I cant win. 

Holy crap Im so ready to hit the hay. Or rather, my cozy bed in front of the fireplace in my Chateau in the Swiss Alps during a storm. Thats my "meditation" I do to be able to relax and make my bed as comfortable as possible. Pretending I am in the most comfortable bed ever is very relaxing. And it definetly helps that Ive got a nuclear reactor for a husband right next to me to perhaps simulate how warm it would be if I did indeed have a fireplace. 

Had a taco bell fit tonight... tried a new thing from them that ive never had... the super crunch something or other.... very good. not big enough, but very good. I think I am over my taco bell craving stage though... just not feeling it anymore. I wish I could crave broccoli or something. 

Ow. Ligaments. Ow. Alright, Im closing up shop for the night. Hope you all had a wonderful day. 

When boredom reigns

Lace or Ribbon

Mountain or Beach

Reading or Writing--can't decide!

Cookie or Cake

Baked or Mashed Potato

Side or Back

Shrimp or Steak - cant have one w/o the other!!

Scrambled or Fried - ick. neither while prego

Orange or Apple

Spring or Fall

Roller Skating or Bowling

DVD or Theater movies

Wood or Glass

Blue or Green

Chocolate or Vanilla

Quilt or Knit

Early Morning or Late Night

Coffee or Tea--

Watermelon or Strawberry

Lunch or Dinner

Cold Cereal or Oatmeal

Song or Dance

Carpet or Hardwood Floor

Red or Pink

Cat or Dog

Pretzels or Chips

Iced Tea or Lemonade - cant decide

Non-Fiction or Fiction

Rose or Daisy

Sunrise or Sunset

Comb or Brush

Pottery or Basket

Bracelet or Necklace

Pen or Pencil

Couch or Chair

Country or Victorian

Farm or ranch - either would be nice

Braid or Ponytail - ha. ive never had enough hair for a braid

Cash or Check

Chocolate Bar or Jelly Bean

Coke or Pepsi

Hot Dog or Cheeseburger - Hot dog only from costco, cheeseburger only from mc d's

Blinds or Curtains

Dress or Pants

Sun or Moon

Adventure or Comedy

Cloud or Star

Lake or River

Half Full or Half Empty

Truck or Car

Bath or Shower

Clothesline or Clothes Dryer

New or Second Hand

Gum or Lifesaver

Email or Handwritten

July or October

Barefoot or Shoes

Random thoughts

Any one know of any good buscuit recipes? Ya know, the kind that turn out like Pillsbury flaky ones? I got close tonight... but they didnt rise as well as I wanted them too. Any input would be good... perhaps your mom knows Cece??? They did turn out pretty though, I was going to take a pic, but then I got caught up in turning the salmon so I put the buscuits back in the oven to keep warm and they got too brown on the top. Still tasted ok.

Its been an uneventful day today, which is nice. Wasnt feelin so hot this morning, but Im doing better now and even after dinner craving a BLT and popcorn. OH!! and I found this popcorn stuff that you shake on and it tastes exactly like movie theater popcorn!! It even turns them yellow. Its probably horrendously unhealthy, but ooooohhhh soooo gooood!!!

We have to speak in church in a month, Im already preparing. The topic is Faith. Just Faith. Ive got so many scribbles and notes on so many random peices of paper now... Ive just got to put it in an order that makes sense and then get scriptures that correspond to main points. I kinda enjoy this, it reminds me of English class. 

So far work has been going well, yesterday the owners were coming in for a walk through so we all were bustin butt to get the place even more immaculate than it already is. HARD WORK. All the public areas are done every day anyways, some days I feel like Im just dusting toilets. But I suppose it is nice that this old folks home is immaculate and I dare say pretty close to germ free. Except the staff room. Apparently no one cares in there. 

Not a whole lot to report on at the moment... oh Im getting a calling in our church on Sunday... Looks like we'll be moving again... I say that jokingly only because every calling we have had we have ended up moving 2 weeks into it. Anywho, I forgot what the title is but I will be working with the 8-10 year old girls on Wed. nights. Its like a youth group for that age. No clue what I will be doing, but Im sure it wont be too bad. 

So far I have one dress and 2 skirts that fit me. Poo. Getting dressed for church is getting frusterating. I dont really like the way I look in anything at the moment anyways... Actually its all I can do to avoid the mirror right now. Perhaps it wont be as bad when I actually have the full-on belly. Right now even though I am showing a little, I still just look big and my pride and joy of a waist is almost gone.

Well thats all from the homefront for right now... 

My warped sense of humor thought this was funny. Seriously... just keep clicking.

Oh, and while I was away....

Got our 11 week ultrasound. The little bean was bouncing around so much! 

Im Back!!!

We finally got a router!! I am back to the land of the living finally.  So to catch up.... Ive been working full time at a luxury old folks home, get this....$9500 a month for the best rooms. Im not kidding when I say luxury. So far being pregnant and working hasnt been too bad, Im not that big yet. 

I am at the end of 12 weeks pregnant, I am starting to show a bit!! Exciting. We find out what it is for sure in 4 weeks. I am still pretty sure its a girl, but I could be suprised. We havent bought anything yet for good reason, and its killing me! Especially going to walmart and seeing all the cute little easter dresses  out there. 

I am finally over being sick. I caught that miserable crud that is going around. And, wonderfully enough, I am pregnant and not allowed any medication in the 1st trimester. I got through it, although Im still coughing a bit.

Went and saw Watchmen last week... dont see it and by all means dont take your kids. It is nothing short of pornographic. Im appalled. I keep joking that if God doesnt wipe out Hollywood anytime soon, he will have to apologize to Sodom and Gommorrah. 

I am so excited  to catch up on the blogs I read!! Ive missed alot. Be back tomorrow on my normal blogging schedule.

i havent died. really.

our router got fried so we have one computer which just so happens to be hubs' computer. so therefore i will write when i can. 

Insult to injury

In addition to my last post... add pinkeye to both eyes as well. Ive got eyedrops for that though.

Otherwise, Im not allowed any medication since Im only 10 1/2  weeks along. 

I am feeling better, but still. 

Holy sick!!!

Tip #1: Dont get sick while pregnant!!  

I am up, yet again, (this is day 3) at 5am trying to soothe this stupid cough with the umpteenth cup of honey lemon tea. I caught what is going around, and in normal circumstances, I'd be taking it fine because I would have gallons of Nyquil at my disposal. 

But since I am pregnant and have to take the "au natural" approach, I am on day 3, now with laryngitis and a cough that is so horrendous, hubs is now taking day 3 off from work because even with me in a different room he still hasnt gotten any sleep for 3 nights.

The poor dear ran to the store last night at 1am for me after I had a break down. You know how hard it is to cry when your throat is closed up???  So I am out here after another coughing fit, hoping the honey will do something amazing this time, and hoping hubs can get some rest while I am being soothed. 

My boss even called ME to tell me to take Friday off as well. I dont think I will make it to the BBQ tonight, or sailing Sunday, but that is fine with me, only if I can sleep. I dont have a freakin voice anyways. 

Any one have any ideas for me? Aside from jumping off a cliff???

One of my favorite Psalms

I love this Psalm, it has kept me going time and time again.

Psalm 61

Hear my cry, O God; attend unto my prayer.

 From the end of the earth will I cry unto thee, when my heart is overwhelmed: lead me to the rock that is higher than I.

 For thou hast been a shelter for me, and a strong tower from the enemy.

 I will abide in thy tabernacle for ever: I will trust in the covert of thy wings. Selah.

 For thou, O God, hast heard my vows: thou hast given me the heritage of those that fear thy name.

 Thou wilt prolong the king's life: and his years as many generations.

 He shall abide before God for ever: O prepare mercy and truth, which may preserve him.

 So will I sing praise unto thy name for ever, that I may daily perform my vows.

im alive

Its been a few days since I last posted... have a great reason... Im employed. I did get the job and it is a bit tiring. But a job nonetheless. Just trying to balance work and my disaster of a house. 

In baby news, Im 9 weeks along... girl name so far: Sonja Elise...boy name so far: Jacob Michael. Subject to change at any time, though probably not. 1st ultrasound is next week, get to hear the heartbeat. 

I dont have a ton of time for writing right now, but just wanted to stick my head in and say hi and Im still here.

When frusterations mount. (or rather, me venting)

I cant get ahead of myself. My house. My chores. My thoughts. Ive got things to do, choices to make and for some reason or another they all pile up on me at once when I have absolutley no time to sort through them. Today I go sign my hiring papers, Zac got paid, and now I have to decide whether to pay the truck today and get enough food to get by for the week, or pay the truck a day late next week and buy decent food for the week. I also have a kitchen to clean up, a mysterious blue envelope to find (i hope its in the closet!), quickbooks to settle out, call the tax guy to see if we have to file in Idaho or Washington, and many many growing piles that I havent had the time to put away or go through. My bathroom needs a deep clean and the bedroom is growing clothes. Not to mention I have to fit in my workout, and be ready for hubs when he comes home in a bad mood so I can cheer him up and be the rock of the household as per usual. Oh, and I have to take the movies back, fill out an exit application for Zacs student loans and somehow find money for a brake job before my wheels fall off.

All this on top of being pregnantly fatigued which is driving me mad. The temple is closed until the 24th for maintenance, I havent really had time to do devotions, not like I've really felt very pious enough to do them. I cant fast because Im pregnant, I totally spaced family home evening which is supposed to take place on Monday, but I forgot and have been forgetting every single day since. So I am calling quits on that until next monday. Then there is always the very real fear of Zac getting laid off, every Friday it seems that some rumor goes around his work that they will be laying off 20 people this week, etc.  Which most of the time doesnt happen, but that company is very good at layoffs if they dont like you or if they see you arent working hard. Which is a little bit of a catch-22 there because they are very slow right now so everyone is scrambling for even the most menial something to look busy. Which in turn brings my hubby home in not so great moods and there seems I can do nothing really to help him other that remain cheerful and happy and steadfast all the while I just want to cry and be down myself because I havent accomplished what I wanted to that day and Im tired and and I dont have anyone to tell me that its going to be ok or to get me a cup of tea.  

And I know I cant stress out because that would stress out the baby and thats not good apparently. in a sense, I guess its a good thing that I am having to be cheerful all the time, it does tend to keep me out of bad moods, but still. And I dont know how I am going to wing getting anything done when I start working. Hubs said he'd help me out, I appreciate that! I will get off at 4pm, so that adds an hour to my after work schedule.  Sorry for the venting but I needed it.