Its official...

The tree is up...

The rejected Twilight script....

Thank you Millie :)

http://www.ericdsnider.com/snide/my-rejected-new-moon-screenplay

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It's a blowin' outside. Im just waitin for the monsoon to hit. I drove home for lunch like usual and about got blown off the road with the rest of the cars on the highway. Its black on the horizon, like the clouds above Mordor...sorry thats the best I can come up with. The damn "H" doesnt like me today, its sticking and I have to hit it pretty dang hard to make it work. What a pain.

Im ready to go home. Especially with this weather. I have to do a 40 minute workout before I can even sit down, (ick.) but then I can finish Robin Hood Men in Tights with hubs. Yes, he was nice enough to start it with me last night...and I dont care how many times he says how dumb that movie is, he was laughing last night so I caught his bluff! ( I love you honey :) )

Im gettin excited to choreograph The Pajama Game this year! (Thanks Pam!) I've already got ideas brewing and hubs has since learned to waltz and to tango - i needed a guinea pig for some of the partner dances :) The only sucky part is that I cant get any of the songs out of my head and they all intertwine with each other and make a huge mess of a song.

I've started working 4 hours of overtime on Saturday mornings...yes I miss sleeping in on Sat., but I enjoy the extra money...well, my bills enjoy it more than I do. The nice thing is that it is so quiet at the office that I have 4 hours of uninterrupted time to choreograph or finish up personal projects. I get off at noon, so its not bad and if I want a Saturday off I just have to ask.

Tomorrow is date night. A lady in our church offered to babysit so we took her up on it. I feel really weird that I'm leaving my baby with someone else, especially not family, but it's only for a few hours. Enough to do a temple run and get something to eat. I just hope I can concentrate on what were doing instead of worrying if my baby is ok with out me or Zac.

I need caffeine if Im going to be able to work out this evening...Im fading.

For all you holiday travellers...

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Pics of the boy..

My little sweetie is 3 months old on Thursday!

Happy Frugal Earring Dance!

LOOK AT WHAT I FOUND! Sterling silver hoops on Ebay for sixty nine cents and no shipping!!! Doing my frugal victory dance!

Change of Pace

I had to do it. I changed my blog colors and crap. I like it quite a bit more. I think I've found something that is completely more "me". I just had to post something that just to be able to say I posted today.

A Day in the Life

5:00am - woke up to screaming baby. Zac just only came to bed, but we both slog out of bed, him to get a bottle ready, myself to wash out my pumping equipment. Zac settles down with an unsettled baby, and I pump for about 15 minutes. I go back to bed, but I dont sleep because Pierce is crying and I am praying for Zac to have patience with him and for Pierce to feel better. I think I go to sleep because I wake up on my own at 8:16am...an hour later than my alarm was set. I must have turned it off in my sleep. That means no shower for Courtney...so hard to wake up without a shower and tea. I lumber out of bed once more, leaving my husband snoring on his side. Im dressed and ready to go by 8:50..wolfing down my breakfast while going to my car. I make the 10 minute ride to work going down 14, thumbing through the radio stations. I stop at 88.3 Catholic Radio to hear a verse out of 1st Corinthians saying something about boasting the Lords' miracles. Its been in my head all day.

I get to work at 9:05...my clock must be off. I sit down at my desk and dive right into making extremely urgent phone calls, all of which cant answer my questions and reroute me to different numbers. After 5 switches, I get my answer. Not the answer I want, but nothing I can do to change it. Rats. (more like some sort of expletive, but for the sake of good taste I wont repeat it) I then spend until about 10am sorting mail that got routed to us from our Home Office, waiting for Kristin to bring up the mail from the post office. I then spend the next hour and a half trying to sort through that while getting up and down taking over the front desk as Leann goes back and forth from various places in the office. I finally get the mail finished to take it around the circle...there's a counter that has food on it every morning, usually donuts or cookies. Yesterday there was wraps...no such luck today. I take a macadamia nut cookie..and then another one for good measure. And then its noon.

I sit and play at the front desk, waiting for Leann to get back from lunch so I can go. 1pm hits and I am free! Well, for an hour anyways. I run to my car, not wanting to waste any time. I speed home and flop in bed with my napping husband. Oh how good that felt! I had a migraine anyways. Some how I am able to pump more than enough milk in 5 minutes to supply little one, so that gives me 10 extra minutes of cuddle time. We hang out and 5 minutes before 1pm, I warm up last nights halibut and eat on the road, happy that this steak doesnt have bones and sighing as I have to go back to work until 6.

I walk back in the doors and talk to Leann a bit about smoothies and exercise, then sit back at my desk to print out fedex labels. I love that little machine. Its so much more convenient than hand writing those stupid things. I find a 2 drawer file cabinet on Craigslist for $5, call the girl and arrange to pick it up tomorrow. I had arranged for a 4 drawer cabinet, but where to put it? 3pm - Leann remembers she has to pick up food for tomorrow's meeting, so I am back up at the front until 4. She has thus came and left and I am holding down the fort like usual during the 4-6pm hours. I dont feel like getting into any major projects, nor do I have the energy to think about my business plans. Headaches suck.

Its 4:16pm now...Im waiting for 6pm to roll around. Im hungry, so Im eating a fruit and grain bar. Strawberry. I prefer Raspberry, but I ate that this morning. When I get home, we are going to Winco for food, Zac is making blue cheese, swiss and mushroom burgers...I need a few things as well. Then while Zac makes dinner, I am going to start my business plan and hang out with my little monkey. Afterwards, Pierce gets a bath. Then Stinky gets his flea bath. And then...I am going to soak and meditate in a long, hot bubble bath. The first since Pierce was born. And then I am going to go to bed praying that tomorrow will be a better day.

Apprehension.

Seems to be my favorite emotion as of the last 5 months. I don't know why. Nor do I particularly care.

It poured like mad today. Poor little Stinky-cat turned into the scrawniest little thing after being caught under a waterfall this morning... Driving Hwy 14 to work could have been classified as a suicide attempt.

My ears wont pop. It feels like my eyes are going to pop out of my head if my ears don't get it together.

Been dreaming about a place that doesn't exist yet. It will in time I'm sure, but we don't have enough resources now.

Speaking of dreams, mine have been doing double duty. Been having the same dream twice in one night every night for the past week.

Wants a big ol' steak, garlic mashed potatoes, grilled shrimp, side salad with LOTS of ranch, dinner roll with butter and a Shirley Temple. I miss my Texas Roadhouse.

Goin home.

Randomness

**my mom took this pic at Ann Morrison Park***

Well..........yeah. Things are definitely looking up. I've got tea and other good things around me. Pierce is finally a happy camper due to a baby-sized rice pack. Zac is doing wonderfully (im pretty sure anyways) being out of Thompson. And I am smiling watching a little flock of about 7 baby birds flit from the tree in front of my work to the bush next to it and back. So cute.

Halloween is approaching and I am really enjoying the rainy cold weather. Its so much easier to relax when I get home from work when its dark and rainy. Cozy. Still dont know where to get gingerbread flavored syrup for my hot chocolate tho... I'll have to ask Cece...

Going to a halloween costume party and some friends house...never been to one and I havent dressed up since I was 13. I think my last costume I was a hippy. I even made my own peasant dress. Out of the cheapest, stiffest fabric known to man. This year Ive decided on biker-chick because Ive already got the jacket and chaps and stuff from when we had our motorcycle. I miss that bike. Little one is going as a garden gnome I think...not sure how Im going to get a beard to stay on him... Ive got a week to find out. And Zac....well...i cant say now because its supposed to be a surprise and there are people who read this who are going :) Let me just say....Linz, Jesse..anyone else who reads this that knows us...prepare yourselves.

Church has been a welcome change too. We are finally able to take Pierce out and about so we finally have been able to go to church. He's been an absolute peach so far. I am only able to stay through Gospel Doctrines though, he gets hungry by 3rd hour and I have to pump anyways... Im sure I'll get to go to RS soon...

Work is going well. Its going fast today. I just wish it was Friday. Actually I wish for one day where I didnt have to remember to do anything. I could turn the phone off and do whatever without having to take care of some sort of business. O well. Such is life and quite frankly I'd get lazy if that were the case.

Im really looking forward to going home for Christmas... I hope it works out. I just first have to find out if I get Christmas eve off. Im excited for Shannon and Cecelia and Celia - and whoever else we can pack into that weekend - to meet Pierce. Im also looking forward to dinner tonight. Im starving again. I ate quite a bit today...not sure what the deal is.

Right now I am counting down the minutes (45 left) before I can go home and cuddle up with hubs, make some cocoa (with peppermint since i cant find gingerbread) and be comfy. And fit in a workout, but I dont want to think about that. Man, everyone has such nice cars here. Even the trucks are really really nice. That is one think I do see driving home Hwy 14 everyday, is lots and lots of Jags and Lexus'. And here's me toodling along in my Saturn that somehow hasnt fallen completely apart yet. Oh and has totally lost its shine. We need a new car. Im hoping this one lasts until we have the money to get a new one.

I want to keep typing but I have nothing to write about. Im sure I could think up something. But o well. Enjoy your evening.

Twilight, thou shalt be the death of me.

Seriously?? Am I the only one not in the world who could care less about sparkly vegetarian vampires? I rolled my eyes more than once I'm sure during the movie that hubs drug me to..yes it seems even he is bitten slightly by the Twilight bug... I've perused the books only to be disenchanted with the dialogue and it sure doesnt help they chose the the guy who played Edward to be the funniest/ugliest looking vampire I've ever seen. And now at my work...all children want to be vegetarian vampires! All adults have read and re-re-read the books. And I am alone. Alas... I must stay strong in this lonely world and stick with my Shannara druids and Harry Potter wizards. Team Edward or Team Jacob? Im on Team I-dont-have-time-to-read-anyways-because-infants-know-when-you-do.

A last note: I got an ad in the mail for halloween costumes... had an Edward costume...here's what you need:

1)dark jacket

2)white shirt

3)khakis

4)4 gallons of hair gel

5) covergirl foundation in "albino"

6) a look on your face like you just smelled dog poo and are thinking about liking it.

Sooooo..... apparently all you have to do is look like a GAP model and call yourself Edward, et voila!

This is going to kill me.

Its Cold! :)

Mornings are getting foggy, cold and wet now. The leaves are definetly turning, and its getting dark at about 6:30-7ish. This can only mean one thing.... ITS OCTOBER! And then it will be November and then Christmas! If you couldnt tell, I LOVE LOVE LOVE this time of year! Especially now that we are in a place that is wet and cold. I hope we get a little bit of snow this year, not as much as last year, but a little, especially around Christmas. I am so excited to break out my boots and sweaters, hot chocolate with gingerbread syrup is tasting soooo much better now that morning is freezing cold and nights can finally be spent wrapped up in a blanket. Even Pierce's little winter outfits are cuter now that he can actually wear them! This time of year makes me happy. Even oatmeal tastes good. Not that Im in a bad mood the rest of the year, I just get happier starting in October.

Well so far things are looking up...Zac is now a stay at home dad and I am working. It feels weird to be working again, but I am happy to have an income again. And the best part is that I get to go home for lunch. My work is right next to Zacs' old work. Zac is working very part time at a security company, his last job was to provide security at the Pearl Jam concert. He didnt get to watch the concert, but was placed right next to the dressing rooms so he got to meet the band which was pretty neat. Pierce is growing like a weed. A chubby weed. He has a double chin now and has fat rolls around his wrists (finally!). He actually looks like a full term baby now and not a preemie. Not to mention he is growing out of his outfits :( He is going through colic though, which we are getting used to.

So far it looks like we are spending Thanksgiving at Shari's again lol! Until Pierce is old enough to enjoy Thanksgiving dinner, I s'pose we will make that tradition. We didnt initially plan on that, it came to be because we moved on Thanksgiving Day up here to Vancouver and Shari's was the only place open. I think Zac actually had a turkey dinner there. Lol! They're not bad. And I even have a coupon this year :)

Well that is all for now... :)

Okaaayyyy...

Its amazing how much time a 6.5 pound football with appendages takes up. Not to mention the 2 hours of daylight i lose for the collective time it takes for pumping. O well. So little one is doing well, getting over his cold and right now sleeping on daddy. Daddy is sleeping as well, so i finally get my computer time! We used to have 2 computers but we sold mine for some reason. I still dont remember...

We are currently in the job market again, there are so many many more opportunites up here that in Idaho. Although if we could find one for sheep herding in Texas we'd probably take it.

I've got 10 pounds to go before I hit pre prego weight, although I can finally fit into my clothes... i think i said that on my last post. I havent gotten the 6 week go-ahead to work out yet, frusterating. I applied for a job at Nautilus down the road... my wheels are turning now....they have offices in Europe. Switzerland, Germany, Italy and UK... some positions require fluency in French, which sadly, I have to work on again. Its been too long since I've had to carry on a full conversation in French, otherwise I would jump on that specific position. But... so far Im just dreaming :) Wouldn't that be wonderful??? I'd take any of it in a hearbeat!! Although I'd choose Switzerland first, then the UK second, Germany 3rd and Italy 4th. They also have offices in China and Australia, but they dont interest me as much. And Im not so sure I could do real Chinese food from how Lewis described it. Even in America, if my food looks like what it used to be, forget it. I'll starve thanks.

In the mean time, I am looking forward to choreographing the Pajama Game for the local theater with some friends from church who head the productions. Im waaaay excited. I miss my Kennedys girls, so now I will have a chance to "teach" again, and a different style than pointe as well.

Other than that not much is going on. Zac got laid off, and is trying to find a new job, we're working on it. Please pray for us that the right situation will present itself.

Altright, off to read my fave blogs!

Small Update

Well, we are surviving. We have had Pierce home for 4 days now... and he is growing! He went from a 2 ounce bottle every three hours to a 2 ounce bottle every 1.5 hours. No sleep for mom. Sigh.

But for what he makes me lack in sleep he makes up for in overall cuteness. Im feeling ok, a little tired, but not bad.

Here's a photo or two.

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Where I've been

Ok Ive got some time and a bit of energy. Here's the lowdown on what happened in August....

August 6th, I had my normal OB appt. Weighed in and discovered I gained 10 pounds in 3 weeks. (Not to mention ALL of me was pretty swollen) I was supposed to have bloodwork done anyways at the appt, but the lab was closed so my doc sent me to Southwest Hostpital since theirs was open. So I got there, sat down and they took one look at my feet and my chart and decided they needed me to stay the night for observation. So I call Zac and tell him he's spending the night at the hospital that night and to bring a change of clothes and that they said I'd go home the next day.

Soooo... the next day arrives and my blood pressure SOARED, swelling hadnt gone down and so they decided to hold me the weekend. They did a 24 hour urine protein analysis (fun.) and took more blood. By the time the 24 hours were up, my levels were high so they gave me one steroid shot in the butt, and another at 11:30pm the next day. (The steroid was to help the baby's lungs stregnthen) then we did another 24 hour urine analysis and by monday my protien levels were SOARING as well and my blood pressure kept going up, but my bloodwork was still normal. So by Monday, they decided I was definetly pre-eclamptic and they shipped me off to the biggest hospital in Oregon, St. Vincents because I would have to deliver early, and the facility I was at didnt deliver before 35 weeks. All this time Zac was being the BIGGEST help in the world!! I really still cant thank him enough.

So after a 30 minute ambulance ride, we got to St. V's and in a much more comfortable room. (this is Monday afternoon) Blood pressure ever rising, Urine protien ever rising, swelling waaaay more than I did when first admitted, and now a headache that Oxycodone (Percoset) didn't even touch... so they put me on a magnesium sulfate drip to keep the swelling down around my brain, which was why I had a headache. (I wouldnt wish magnesium sulfate on ANYONE. It feels like you took too much Niacin, a tall glass of whiskey and have the flu at the same time. But you are only nauseas if you stand up.) Oh ya, and I gained another 10 pounds since I was admitted. And so we continued all of this until Tuesday afternoon about 1 and the doc came in and said they were going to have to induce me at 33 weeks. The baby was absolutley fine, it was me they were worried about.

I was dialating by myself anyways, so the broke my water, (ohhhh yes I got the epidural. I didnt care at that point. Dialated to a 5 and being a zombie on Mag sulfate...) And at 11:50am on Wednesday they rolled me in to the operating room to deliver. I was in the operating room because the doors to the NICU (the preemie ward) was attached and it wouldnt be bad if I needed a C-section. I was so out of it, and trying to push and stuff, it felt like only 10 minutes. However I tore a level 4 (all the way through 5 mm into the rectum) and had to have an episiotomy, because the baby 's heartrate was dropping. (Praise the Lord for epidurals!! I didnt feel a thing.) I delivered a 4lbs 13oz, 19 1/4 inch long baby boy, he got whisked off to preemie world, Zac went in with him, and I layed on the delivery table for another 1.5 hours getting stitched up. The nurse I had was nice enough to wheel me into see Pierce after I was done, but I only got to hold him for 5 minutes. Apparently I needed to rest.

So Zac would go back and forth from my room to Pierce's isolet and bring me back pictures and video. It was Friday when they finally let me go home. As of last friday my blood pressure is back to normal, stitches dont hurt at all and I have no swelling. As of yesterday (YAY!! MILESTONE!) I fit back into my pre-prego jeans :) Pierce is still up at the NICU until next week. That would be his "36th" week and thats when they like to send them home.

Its a little hard to give birth, know you're parents, but the only thing that has changed at home is there is a crib in the corner now. But he is getting the best care, I certainly couldnt have done that for him. Im pumping and bringing him milk and he is doing just fine. Just waiting for him to put on a few more ounces. He is also the biggest baby in the preemie ward.

My parents are here this week helping us out, and Zac's will be here next week. I hate hospital food, and the only part of the hospital I really like is the NICU, beacuse I can leave whenever I want. So thats the scoop as to where I've been. Oh ya, not to mention Im on an every 3 hours pumping schedule, even through the night, so getting used to that schedule has exhausted me a bit, but I seem to be getting used to it. It'd be easier if Pierce was home cuz then I'd have a better excuse other than engorgement to wake up to at 2:30am.

Zac has been SO TOTALLY AWESOME BEYOND WORDS through this whole thing. I cant believe I ended up with such an amazing man. I still cant thank him enough.

All right, well, going back to bed.

Pierce Michael Is Here!!!

I dont have much time as I am going back to bed... but our BEAUTIFUL baby boy is here at 33 weeks!! He was born August 12 at 11:50am, 4lbs 13oz and 19 1/4 inches long.

Everyone is healthy and happy, although we will be much happier when he is able to come home with us in a few weeks. Pierce is up in the newborn ICU right now being monitored until the first week of September or so to make sure he is progressing correctly, which so far the kid is passing with flying colors.

Ok, going back to bed.

End of 32 weeks.... just for the record

Im not really chinese in any way... i think the lighting plus me looking down just makes me look that way.

Not enough time in one day..... for being on hold??

I hate the "hold" button. I hate waiting for someone to answer their stupid phone. With all the people who work at the IRS, you'd think that SOMEONE could pick up the dang phone. Oh when they do, I have found them to be an INVALUABLE resource. I just hate waiting for that resource. Gripe, gripe, gripe.

Anyways, the rest of this week hasnt turned out so bad, just not awesome. Its slowly getting better as the days go by, however I'd like to just turn around and call it a day by 8am. Its actually 62 degrees as a high today and supposed to rain tomorrow!! HALLELUJAH BROTHER AMEN!! (that was from my feet.)

I only have 6-8 weeks left of being pregnant, which is weird to think about. And then I will trade one foreign body for one I sort of used to know and have to get used to that as well. I am getting a little nervous however about giving birth only because 10 years ago I had a hernia surgery and I am not sure how well that is going to hold during the process. I dont want a c-section if i dont have to. Im hoping everything healed up in there like it should have and it shouldnt be a problem. Only thing is that I can feel a little foot kick it every so often and when it stretches YOWZA it hurts. I have my doc appt. today, I will have to ask. Im getting excited! Im excited to not look like a blimp anymore either. Ok its more like a yoga ball with legs, I really am all tummy.

Ok i just got off the phone with the IRS!! As much as I hate the tax part of things, they are sooooo helpful. Ok, back to work.

Speechless, in a good way

I am so in awe of our Lord and His timing. Holy cow its like, everytime I rely upon Him to get us through something it works out every time, but each time it comes upon me as the most awesome thing in the world. I never have forgotten how amazing each and every time is, it just seems the more and more it happens I am just that more in awe of Him.

Unfortunatly I cannot divulge details still, but lets just say that if He hadnt worked the timing out for Zac to do something when he did, then he would be out of a job on Friday. but because Zac went with his prayers and did this totally unrelated-to-work thing, they are letting him keep his job and I dont have to worry about where the next rent and truck payment are coming from.

Had Zac not gotten the notion in the first place, (which i might add was COMPLETELY out of the blue, he just got a feeling that he needed to look into it) then he wouldn't have spent so much time praying and pondering with me and the Spirit, and then come Friday disaster would have hit.

I am sooooooooooo thankful for the Lord in our lives, I cant even explain it but it just keeps getting better and better. Sorry for being so vague, I will be more forthcoming eventually. Please send prayers our way and thank the Lord today for all He has blessed you with.

Im going to go buy myself some roses.

Ever feel quite unnappreciated? Like you do soooooo many things behind the scenes to keep things running smoothly on a daily (and sometimes nightly) basis that it really would take eternity to explain each and every process... and then when Heaven Forbid you FORGET something, you are thus dubbed the most incompetent person known to man?

Short post

And yet again once more, there is something going on around the "M" household, and yet since it has not come into fruition, I cannot say what it is. It just feels good to type at least something about it. Yet another huge decision is poking its head in to the picture, one that will require either a Yes or No answer fairly shortly. And if we say Yes, then life as we know it will change completly. However I am thankful we have the Lord in this and I am thankful that hubs and I are stepping into this decision hand in hand, heart in heart. Sorry I have to beat around the bush, I hate doing that, but if you wouldnt mind send a prayer our way, I'd appreciate it.

Its so dang hot here that I cant hardly think straight not to mention my feet, calves, ankles knees and thighs have all melded together in to two swollen telephone poles. Then they go back down quite a bit while Im sleeping, but the second my feet hit the floor, the bottom half of me looks like I am 300 pounds! Oh pregnancy, if you werent giving me my son I would hate you. September better come really fast!!

Ive got to start my day now..hehe... at 11am....

Are your 30's any better?

Lately I've been pondering something... are getting into your 30's better than being in your 20's? Is there really that much of a maturity gap? Obviously I understand there is a good 10-someodd years between the two to get settled, but does life really get better as you get older? Im not sure why Im pondering this... So far im just not thrilled with my 20's. I still feel too young. I still feel too close to highschool. So far I think I might be the only one I know who isnt afraid of turning 60. Heck, I'll be happy to leave my 20's behind and tradea bit of youth for a little more wisdom and maturity. Even back in middle school I always said I looked forward to getting older and wiser...

However, I do realize that the quality of life you live depends on how you live it, so if you are still bringing the bad habits of your 20's to your 30's, and then 40's and so on...well I suppose then you have found eternal youth. But I dont want that. I want to change. I want to grow. I want to become a wealth of knowledge of things that I suppose perhaps dont really apply to my generation at this present time. It just seems that the older you get, and if you apply your wisdom and maturity that you've gained along the way... life just gets more relaxing. Or perhaps it is just that you learn to not worry about every little pitfall and downturn as much as when you were younger.

I am looking forward to expanding my knowledge of Him as well in my coming years. I know by my 30's I will obviously not know everything, but I may be wiser in the word. And perhaps if I can understand that better, perhaps I will be able to relax and remember more often of who is really in charge and not take the 18 year olds view of "I can do everything by myself."

I am looking forward to planning a better financial future for my family. Whether I work or Zac works doesnt matter, what matters is that I am in charge of things and I need to start thinking like Im not 23 still. I get such a comfortable feeling when I ponder the road ahead when we are older and more relaxed and the REALLY IMPORTANT things that are taking precedence now really aren't all that important. I realize with every decade there are things that go wrong, issues that need addressing, and nothing is virtually perfect. But perhaps with the knowledge gained from 23 to 30... perhaps life will seem just that much more sweeter than before.

I am looking forward to living the kind of life style my parents have. Yes, they are in their 50's, and it took them quite awhile to get there, but if I can have that lifestyle too by the time Im 50, bring on the 30's and 40's. I know my parents are more the wiser for it, and they really havent been better off or more relaxed since I was born. As much as I would like that sort of lifestyle to get here RIGHT NOW... I am willing to wait and perservere. And perhaps if I perservere hard enough... perhaps I can knock 10 years off of that.

Lord, I ask thee to please bless me with the perserverance to hang on to what is good and right, and to be able to be more diligent in mine and my family's life. I ask that as I go through the trials and tribulations thou gives me, that I might remember that thou art there and that thou shall prevail and I will come up alongside thee victorious. I ask thee Lord these things humbly in the name of Jesus Christ, Amen.

What a slacker...

Ok I admit it... Ive been slacking. Although technically you havent missed much. My work schedule is getting screwed around with... meaning that for some reason now I am working Wed, Thurs & Fri instead of Mon, Tues & Wed...there is no specific answer for that...But its screwing me up mentally, I cant keep track of anything anymore anyways...(like that alliteration there?) But now I have to totally try and regroup every week. Although on a good note, Im giving it until August 1st to see how Im feeling, how big baby is and whatnot, and then probably only work a few more weeks in August considering our newest little family member is going to be joining us shortly after that.

Speaking of, little guy is doing fine. Moving ALOT. He's found my bladder among other tender things in me, but that doesnt seem to stop him. Starting on the 8th I have to start going in to the docs every 2 weeks and apparently I get another ultra sound. (Fine with me! I like them :) On a bummer note however, my midwife who I thought would be there throughout the entire thing is leaving Kaiser for Southwest so I have to change midwifes... but thats ok. At this point I figure as long as the kid gets out of me Im fine. I have given up the water birth idea. I would still love to do it, however I would have to go to the other side of town, buy all my stuff and then get carted around from closet to closet multiple times after birth. So I decided to stay at Southwest where everything is done in one gigantic room and I can at least labor in the tub. I'd rather not be treated like cargo. I have to call and schedule our tour here shortly, and finish up my birth plan. Sure hope I can get as close to the plan as I'd like, but I know that never works.

Other than that nothing much is going on... my friend Linz was awesome and threw me a baby shower yesterday... it was fun getting together with her and a few friends from church. I dont know why, but I much prefer the small simple gatherings. Not to mention there was an artichoke dip that was TO DIE FOR. (Im surpised hubs didnt die when i came home and kissed him with my garlic-artichoke breath)

We finally liberated Stinky out to the yard. He is having a ball and I dont really have to hear him yowling to go out anymore. And its finally drizzling here. We had about 2 weeks of 90 degree heat. (no, not fun.) But despite how cold or drippy it is... I still dont recognize my feet. That is the one thing I will REALLY enjoy about having a baby!!! No more cement blocks. It seriously looks like I got bit by a brown recluse. And to make things better.... the kid really likes my right side so he just gravitates over and stays put making my right foot plug up like a kinked garden hose. So usually I have ONE foot that is retarded. Sigh... only 2.5 months left if not sooner.

I am still working on the new apartment thingy. I think I have settled on one, God and I have had some talks over it and it seems the timing is just about right. I've learned that it is sooooo much easier and beneficial when I ask Him to find us a place instead of me making a snap decision. Because then I know that He will put us where He wants us and we will be in an area of town that He deems safe. I have never been let down.

It feels so much later than it really is! We were up at 8, didnt end up making it to church, but now its only 10:30 and it feels like I've been up forever. I sure could use a taco right now. Well that is about it for the update.... I'll be back.

Philippians 4:13

I love staying home. I love being able to get things done. I love being able to have my errands ran and a clean home and a nap if I need it. I love being able to greet my husband at the door when he arrives home and not have to walk in an hour after he has already showered. I love feeling the sense of accomplishment I get when I can get up at 6am and actually have time for my devotions, or listen to a sermon to start my day off right, and then be ready to tackle the day.

Truly, God gives us His strength if we ask. If we just only ask and make the effort to receive it, we can accomplish anything. I find on the days i have to work outside the home, nothing gets done, not even my devotions. I might find some time to sneak in a quick prayer, but hardly much else. But the days when I have all day to tend to my home and my finances and my own well being...those days are the ones I truly cherish because I can feel the Lord working through my hands. I know that He is there answering my call for help in even the tough little itty bitty situations. And then I dont feel as if I have failed if I dont accomplish everything on my to-do list. I dont feel like my kitchen is scolding me for not stepping foot in there, because I had the strength to tackle the mess. I dont dread my husband coming home to see just how much I havent done, because I have had the strength to do it. And best of all... I can wake up at 5:45, get hub off to work and I have the strength and energy to go all day long and not be rushed.

I am so thankful the Lord is in my life and for the strength and clarity He gives me when I am willing to receive it. May we all be strengthened in the wisdom of the Lord. Amen.

Philippians 4:13 - I can do all things through Christ who strengthens me

MAKE THIS PIE! - makes 2 pies

STRAWBERRY PIE

2 containers fresh strawberries, sliced and washed

2 pie shells (homemade tastes best, but store bought is fine.)
17 oz Sprite or 7-Up
1 large pkg strawberry Jell-o
1 1/2 cup sugar
5 tbsp cornstarch

Bake pie crust, set aside to cool.

In a sauce pan, bring Sprite, sugar and cornstarch to a boil. Cook over low heat until it thickens (5-10 minutes).

Remove pan from heat. Stir in Jell-o until dissolved. Mix in sliced strawberries.

Pour into two pie shells. Cover with saran wrap and chill for at least three hours before serving.

Before serving, top with whipped cream.

Quick update

I've actually got a few minutes this morning while I finish my tea before I have to go lead an active lifestyle, so I figured I can finally blog!! Ive missed you blog!! Technically, I should be asleep right now. I didnt sleep a wink last night due to a noisy cat that wanted to play all night, the boxing match in my stomach, and the contractions that show up intermittantly, I didnt got to bed until 6:30 this morning after getting zac off to work. And its alomst 10 now.

But alas, I have things to do. My camera battery fried, so I dont have an updated belly pic, and the photos my sis took while she was down here were less than flattering soooo.... you'll have to suffice to know that I feel like a yoga ball with legs and very swollen hands and feet. Middle of summer here we come! I dont think I have ever wanted September to get here so fast!!! I only have 2 1/2 months left, thank goodness! I am soooooooooo ready to stop being swollen and achy and tired and I wouldn't mind fitting into some normal clothes again.

My sis and her boyfriend came up last weekend and brought my kitty. He's been pretty good as an indoor specimen, which I am a little suprised. However he did spend 8 months outside with little more than a pat on the head for attention, so he is jsut soaking up mammas lovin! And the treats too. Little fiend.

This sucks, I hate feeling sick like this, whenever I dont get enough sleep I wind up with a headcold, and I am supposed to go sailboat racing tonight. Might have to skip out on that if I dont perk up. Ok well I have to go food shopping before I get lazy, so I will go now.

Making an effort

Ok...because I am so dang-gum-it bored, and therefore still in a slight bit of a bad mood, I am going to count my blessings. Ive done this in the past and it seem to have helped.

-I have a loving husband

-I have a loving cat

-My family is supportive of my decisions

-My God has never let me down, even when times are trying

-I always have food on the table

-I am able to see

-I have a growing, kicking baby boy in my tummy

-I have a bed I can go sleep in whenever the mood strikes (except at work)

-My husband has a good job and insurance

-It doesnt snow much up here

-I am able to have a computer to myself

-I am able to have clean laundry

-I have a great sis that is bringing up my kitty

-I have a great supportive church family

Ok, I know that isnt all, but i do feel a teensy bit better. This day just needs to end. 

Apprehension?

I feel a bit apprehensive today and I dont know why. Perhaps Im too tired. I just dont understand. Its not bothering me that bad, but its irritating not having a reason. 

No one has sent me photos of my dang trip yet, and I cant get our latest hike photos on the computer just yet. 

Ive got too much to say, but all of it right now is intended for a private journal and not to be plastered on the internet. Sorry, perhaps tomorrow I will have a little more to say. 

Oh and if you are interested, read The Poisonwood Bible, its VERY good.

An overdose of cute

WARNING: If you cannot handle too much furry cuteness, dont click! Otherwise..... click the link!

http://www.theittybittykittycommittee.com/

Photos coming soon I promise!

And we are back from Idaho!! It was such a nice vacation. However we really needed to stay for 2 weeks instead of just one. We had everybody in the world scheduled to go see down to the minute. Not to mention throw in a baby shower and 2 birthdays somewhere in the mix. It was great to see my parents again. I didnt realize how muc I really missed them. Although  nothing except having a family member in a medical situation could ever make me move back. I just dont like the place. No future. And no beach or hiking or boating or kiyaking, ect... and no Portland for shopping...

The baby shower went very well. The weather cooperated with us for the afternoon. (my camera battery is fried currently so until I get a new one, I am waiting for the pics from my mom) I got so many cute things! And so many AWESOME things. My grandad got me a stroller and car seat thing, I got a crib, basically all the kid needs is a few more binkies and were set. (oh ya have I mentioned that i am ready to not be prego anymore?? I want to meet my son and wear normal clothes again!)

I got to see my little Stinky cat too! My friend Cecelia is still boarding him, (CC if you are reading this merci une mille fois!!) And the best part about seeing him? He remembered me and wouldnt let me put him down :) I was so happy. And it was so great to see cecelia again. I never hardly got to see her when I lived there, but somehow we kept in touch. (You know you're best buds wehn you keep in touch and never see each other and when you do its like 5 minutes went by) Her little Esther is sooooooooo freakin cute. Hope mine is as cute.

Zac and I are still both exhausted. Zac stayed home Tuesday due to exhaustion and a slight cold. I would have, but it is impossible to do that with my work. So needless to say nothing has gotten done. I havent even unpacked. I keep looking at myh things with so much lethargy it would kill a slug. I have showered though. Twice. And somehow made it to a 6:30 work meeting at IHOP this morning. (Believe you me, it wasnt easy.)

Im bummed my camera didnt work. I am waiting for my mom or sis to email me the photos. Hopefully that means that I will have them in tomorrows post.  Holy crap I am so tired. Alright, well there isnt much else to say since I cant comment on photos today, so I will leave you with this for the night. 

We landed!

Well we made it! The flight went well, only took an hour. We were only able to get 5 games of uno in before we landed. So we are finally back home. I at my parents and Zac at his. Which sucks at night, because I'm a weenie and miss his presence in bed, but its ok.

We came home to a very nice welcome: a good ol' thunderstorm! That is one thing we dont get in Vancouver. We just get rain. Sometimes a big storm is nice. Everything is how I remember it, small towns never change. Not like its been that long but you'd think in 7 months they would have atleast done SOMETHING to start finishing fixing I-84.

Its a good morning. I woke up at 8 vancouver time, so not bad... wished I hadnt slept so long, but then I dont have a house to keep or errands to run, so I guess its not that bad. I just hate wasting a morning. Alright I have to eat somehting, just wanted to drop by and say Im still alive. :)

What a frusterating world.

Ok, there is either something wrong with me or something is wrong with the world. I am six months prego, I think I look pretty good and I still feel just about as sexy as I did pre-prego.  However, in my search for sexy lingerie for pregnant ladies.... apparently all anyone seems to think is that prego women want sacks. Or nursing bras. 

Hellllloooo world! I want something just as sexy as what got me to this pregnancy state!! And not just bra and undies sets that cover up EVERYTHING.  I want the lace, the vinyl, the erotic stuff, the g-string. Just because my bust is slightly larger and my hips have gotten a bit bigger and my belly is rounder doesnt mean I want to hide it from my husband!! 

Is it just me or do most women maybe not feel like "doing it"?? Is that the issue? Or do people just assume that pregnant women are tired all the time? Or am I just weird? 

Im getting frusterated. I'd like to think Im not wierd and just am enjoying myself like I think I should.  I just dont get it.

ABC's

A - Age: 23

B - Bed size: queen

C - Chore you hate: dishes

D - Dog's name: I dont own one

E - Essential start your day item: Prenatal. 

F - Favorite color: white

G - Gold or Silver: Silver

H - Height: 5' 3" 

I - Instruments you play(ed): Piano 

J - Job title: Wife, Mother, Housekeeper

K - Kid(s): One on the way

L - Living arrangements: I live with Zac 

M - Mom's name: Isabelle

N- Nicknames: Ha ha. you dont get to know that. Its classified

O - Overnight hospital stay other than birth: Never. Always outpatient

P - Pet Peeve: Anything loud. And a few others that i cnat think of right now

Q - Quote from a movie: Do it! And let the English see ya do it!!

R - Right or left handed: Right

S - Siblings: Skeeter

T - Time you wake up: 7 ish

U- Underwear: no commment.

V - Vegetable you dislike: brussell sprouts

W - Ways you run late: trying to think if im hungry or not.

X - X-rays you've had: teeth, arm...one more maybe?

Y - Yummy food you make: mexican lasagna.

Z - Zoo favorite: kitties. 

Sick again..

And what a better thing to do when sick? Go outside! It was about 80 degrees today so hubs took me to the Japanese garden in Portland to enjoy the sun. It was really pretty. My head is all fogged up still so im going to make this short. 

After that we drove to 23rd street and had lunch at a nice little hole in the wall pizza place our friends Lindsey and Joe showed us, then went down the street to have some tea. (which was disgusting.) I got one that was for sick people, and I seriously could have shoved a handful of peppercorns in my mouth and started munching. I didnt even get half way through the glass. Horrible taste. 

So we left and got lost (on purpose) in the Portland hills. That is where all the million and seems billion dollar homes are. Some are soooooo huge and then some are just way cool. Then came home and yes, I was still feeling like hell. Not to mention I felt pregnant too on top of sick. But Lindsey saved the day and brought me prego-safe meds and tea and holy crap!! I'm feeling so much better. Just still have a stuffy nose now. But oh man, I feel almost like a new woman. So now I am ready for bed. But its too early so Im just going to leave you with this post.