Houston, we have a problem...

All circuits are down. Or frazzled at least. Why is it that every month, this time of the month, I feel like the world just spun off its axis and I am being thrown into an oblivion of anxiety and headaches. Sheesh. Can a girl get a break? Can I have just one month of semi-normality when this time occurs? Of course not. Now that I'm over 21, apparently that justifies horrible, awful PMS symptoms. Right now I would kill for the doubling-over crampage of the pre-21 ages, rather than have this psycho-spinning-my-world-is-ending-if-i-dont-get-what-i-want-right-now feeling. I shudder to think what menopause is going to be like. Or even pregnancy. 

On a good note though, it only usually lasts for a day. And today actually isnt that bad. I just got over an awful, awful cold that for some reason involved a fever, was a fun weekend let me tell ya. I took yesterday off from work and just slept. All day. It was nice when I could breathe. 

So that is where I have been hiding out, thought I'd post to say I'm not dead yet. Maybe later I'll think up something inspriational or even interesting. Right now I'm just going to try and make it until 5pm.

So totally random. Forgive me for the boredom.

Today is my husbands 24th birthday. I am such a lucky gal. I suprised him with making his favorite dessert, Peanut Butter Balls, which his mom wont make him anymore... and I was thinking of getting something slinky for tonight, however right now my stomach is saying that eating on my lunch break is more important than going shopping. So far, I am giving into my stomach as I am starving!! I didnt have time to grab breakfast before work this morning, but I've got chocolate protien powder at work for some reason. So I had some of that and man what a taste treat that is. >:P icky. So I've been ransacking our controller's candy dish and the frosting container in the fridge, just waiting to go home and make a grilled chicken sandwich or two. Holy crap I'm hungry. 

Just about anything sounds great right now. Shrimp especially. I think I've got a cold as well... hasnt hit full force yet, but that dang runny nose and sniffing I've had for the past month has finally culminated into ohhhh.... im not feeling very well.... ick. 

I miss my sister. I should call her. I've just been so busy lately with dance and work and laundry and zacs homework. Today is his math final. He was freaking out last night! So we went through his practice test and he knows how to do the problems, he just needs to slow down and double check his work. He needs a 57% to pass the class. I am praying his score is higher than that to boost his confidence a little more. 

I am trying to pass the time right now if you couldnt tell. Also trying to stay awake... It is a lovely day out by the way. It is completely gray and overcast with a cool, damp feel. Hasnt started raining, but I wouldnt mind either way. It reminds me of Alaska and of what I have heard Ireland is like. I wish we had Irish weather. I love the rain and the gloom and the coolness. Occasional sun is nice too, but as long as it is still sweater weather. As much as I am not a huge fan of Idaho, I am very thankful I live here, the south has had multiple storms this year and there is a tropical storm right now raging from the southeast up to new england. Here in Idaho, our most extreme weather happened the other day with 1 inch of rain mixed with hail. Thats it. The only thing that got damaged was those bugs that didnt take shelter quick enough. 

Poop. I've got 15 minutes to go.... my stomach thinks my throat has been cut. Its days like this when I think back to the 2 years I tried to be anorexic and wonder what in the hell I was thinking. I cant not eat now. Holy crap I die if I dont get lunch. Or am able to snack during the day. Right after I get back from lunch my office is celebrating the September birthdays. My coworker made 2 homemade cheesecakes... I guess I cant gorge myself on lunch now, I definetly want room for cheesecake. She made a classic one with strawberry topping and a peanutbutter one with reeses peanut butter cups. Ohhhhh..... I've got to quit talking about food. 

Ok, I've got to do something else before I die from thinking about how hungry I am. 

The cutest little mice ever!!

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Another Satisfying List...

Every so often I am inclined to write down a list of things that are comfy and satisfying. I feel another one coming on:

* Oversized sweats

*Gloomy, dark rainstorms

*Tea with just enough cream and sugar

* Cuddling with hubs

* Comfort food! (particularly stuffing. Im a sucker.)

* Clean sheets

* Big fluffy down blankets

* A spotless, bleached down house

* My kitty when he isnt being a turd

* Wednesday night- ice cream date night at TCBY

* Holidays

* 

So its been awhile....

Its been awhile... Thursday I didnt write because I went home from work with a high fever and such bad vertigo... Friday was better but still had a fever. The weird part was that aside from the vertigo, I didnt feel sick at all! Made for a miserable couple days though. 

Fall is here and so is the rain! (finally!) And the hail. We had such a busy weekend...didnt even seem like a weekend at all. Saturday we woke up to the sky pouring buckets. Thunder and lighting were right over us too! We have gone 59 days without rain, and apparently the rain gods are making up for it. There were neighborhoods that were completley flooded If you have read any of my previous posts, Saturday is when we mow all our clients yards. Soooo.... instead of waking up at 6am and leaving, we slept in until about 8:30, and then left for mom-in-laws in hopes that Nampa would be dry. Lol, it wasnt. So we hung out at mom-in-laws house until 1pm, when finally the sky cleared up and the grass had dried out. But by that time, neither of us felt like doing anything at all, plus the BSU vs. Oregon State game was coming on at 1:30. But we figured we'd better earn our pay, so we went. Out of the 9 jobs we had to do, we got 6 done and but the time we had loaded up from the 6th job, the sky clouded over again and poured!!! So we decided we were done for the day, except we still had to dump the grass in our friends pasture for her cows. As we drove there, the raindrops got bigger, and then the hail the size of dimes came down with it. And didnt stop. We sat in the driveway for a second, looked at eachother and said, ready, go! Not two seconds after we got out of the truck, we were soaked as if we just jumped in a swimming pool. So we drag the tarp out of the back of the pickup to the pasture, all the while getting pelted with stones of sharp little ice balls. Can you say ooowwww!!! We head back to mom-in-laws to warm up and shower and eat, and by that time we were both sooo exhausted, we just plopped down on the couch with a pizza and a calzone and we just slugged out and watched the ball game. (we tivo'd it) It was relaxing hanging out, I love this kind of weather, I could do it every day! Just as long as I'm not having to be out in it. I'll watch from the comfort of my heated home in sweats.  But my poor husband has to go after school this afternoon back to nampa and mow the other 3 yards. 

Sunday was perfect temperature, chilly. Went to church and then had to head over to sis-in-laws for other-sis-in-laws kid (our nephew) birthday party. We also celebrated the 4 other birthdays too, which apparently we each needed our own cake for... there is so much cake left.  It was ok as far as get togethers go... there was 23 people there!! Sooo many people. And quite a bit of venting afterwards. We got home at 8pm, and just slugged out and finally went to bed. 

Long weekend that went by fast. This is how the rest of last week has gone. I am still excited that once the end of october hits we can sleep in on Saturdays, I'll miss the income, but free time is fun too. Ok, back to work.

Heartwarming new blog!

I've got another great blog for you ladies out there... I was reading Anna's blog at Domestic Felicity, and she posted it, and now so must I because it is wonderfully heartwarming and uplifting. It is a blog by Lady Lydia at  http://homeliving.blogspot.com. It is also going on my favorites list on the left side of my blog, if you ever need it. Check it out! 

Random Ramblings

Days like this make me wish it was raining. Its not a bad day by any means, dont get me wrong, I'm just comfy. I'm at work ofcourse, but I would love to be in sweats with a cup of tea and some tomato soup at home watching TV while it is pouring out. I guess I'm just a rainy day person. (anyone pick up on that Gordon Lightfoot reference there?? Sneaky, I know.) 

It sure has been a non stop month of September so far. Between mowing at the crack of dawn of Saturdays, to ball games right after, to working 5 days a week, to helping Zac with homework, to teaching dance 30 miles away, and somehow squeezing church and our wednesday night dates in.... quite honestly I dont know how my house is still clean. My poor cat is probably going through withdrawals from not seeing me. 

Dance is going relatively well for having only been 2 weeks. I got a new girl in my older class with a sucky attitude, but oh well. That's her problem. I'm bummed tho!! The next BSU game BSU Vs Louisiana Tech is on a WEDNESDAY NIGHT!! Dangit I teach that night. Suuuuuuucccckk.

I'm tired of seeing Obama and McCain on Cnn. I'm tired of seeing CNN anyways. It's all I can have on the TV at my desk at work so says my boss. I am excited for lunch though, I'm meeting my old coworker Linda today at Moons Kitchen Cafe.. Its a little hole in the wall but oh man... As far as chicken sandwiches go.... they have by far the best swiss mushroom chicken sandwich in Boise. I normally dont get chicken anything at restaurants because they are usually A) overpriced B) dry and stringy C) I have a lot of chicken at home.  But this! Ohhhhh... this is the most flavorful, moist, succulent chicken sandwich I have ever had. And now that is the only thing I get there. Its making me hungry thinking about it. 

We are finally able to pay our taxes Praise the Lord!! And still have money left over! And we will be getting our stimulus check soon too! So by the end of October, if all the mowing clients pay like they are supposed to, added to our $1200 stimulus package, we should end up with about $3000 in the account to see us thorugh the winter. I am quite pleased. 

Work has been amazingly busy lately, days have gone by so fast. I cant believe September is almost over. I gotta get a jump on Christmas gifts. Ok, I have to get the mail now. Maybe I'll have time to write later. 

BSU vs Bowling Green (whatever that is...)

(oh and for those of you bashing the blue turf, let me tell you that it is soooo much easier to see the football on blue! the contrast is so much better when you have nosebleed seats)

So we smashed Bowling Green....20-7 last night!! It was a good game too... not one of those blowouts where it looks like we paired an NFL team against 6-year olds. Both teams were actually fighting for the ball, it was nice to see some competition. (Also cant believe BYU beat UCLA 57-0!!)

This time it was me, hubby, grampa and dad. Was so totally fun. I love having hubby there. He's not a sports buff, neither am I except when it comes to BSU football, but it is a good time. Dad made AWESOME bbq'd roast beef sandwiches. Heres the recipe... get ready moms.... this is sooo easy!

BBQ Roast beef sandwiches:

1 pound sandwich roast beef from the deli

1 bottle of Sweet Baby Ray's BBQ Sauce

Hoagie buns

Slice the beef, stir in with BBQ sauce, heat up, put on hoagies, serve with chips.

Can you say easy???

I also am exited, my ZEN came in!...(that is the new MP3 player from Creative) Havent gotten to use it yet cuz it takes a bit of time to set up, but the good news is that I get 30 days free UNLIMITED downloads from napster as soon as i sign up, so hubs and I are trying to get the biggest song list going ever. We have 6 gigs to fill up. Lotsa songs. Ok, well I have to get ready for church now, thats the latest.

Another short ode to tea.

There is something to be said about a hot cup of tea after a brisk 2 mile bikeride in the morning. What a comfort for a Friday morning.

Time? Whats that?

Incase you're wondering, I am still working on week 2's webinar for finacial freedom. It has been an amazingly crazy week at work, and then go home to do 3 hours of math homework with hubby, I'm fried. So I'm about 1/2 way done with it and will get it to you when i can. Sorry for the delay!

Creative Juice Soup

I want to write a book. I've always wanted to. I just never got past the 1st page. I tried fiction, that was a bust. My characters ended up doing the same thing in every chapter, and I'm not good with dialogue. When I was in France, I tried a first-hand travel guide for the area I was in, but ended up being fairly unhappy with where I was at the time, that my book reeked of sarcasm and distaste. So I gave that up. Then I thought that perhaps I could use my blog posts as some sort of memior of a mid-town girl from Idaho... but that would be boring, and you can just read my blog if you're that interested. 

It seems that all the good ideas are taken, and that there are soooo many books on every subject. So now my next thought is to write on what I've learned about God and His words... I know thats a tired subject in book-ville, but my own thoughts and experiences are unique, so perhaps it would be a different perspective... I dont know. Please, if you have any ideas, I would love to hear them...

I'd love to be on a best seller list, but I need to write the dang thing first. I think its a good idea. What do you think?

Webinar update

I know I said that this monday would be week 2 of the finacially free webinar, but I have to post it tomorrow. With the weekend as busy as it was, and now back at work I can tell its going to be one of those mondays, I'll get it out to you as quick as i can tomorrow. Thanks!

What a weekend!

Wow I dont think I have ever had a weekend go by so fast. As you may know from my last post, my BDay was Friday. So we didnt end up having grilled cheese, we ended up goin to Twin Dragon Chinese Restaurant. That place has special meaning to us, that was the one place we used to go all the time when we were dating. I got a dinner platter that was waaaay to big for me, so I still have the leftovers in the fridge, which I think I will toss now that I think about it... And then we just went home a hung out. It was a very nice evening.

Saturday, we had to work, and usually we are up at the crack of dawn mowing lawns and we are usually done by noon, but Saturday we slept in until 9am... left at 9:30... went to mom-in-laws to eat and sharpen mower blade until 10:30... mowed a few.... hit the D&B Saturday sale and got Zac some great new pants for welding...mowed a few more...went to Subway.. well, you get the gist of it. We finally finished at 6pm. Loooooonnnggg day. But it got better after that, we went home and took a shower and then headed to Ross for my birthday presents!! I FINALLY have a pair of jeans that aren't grass-stained and make my butt look good. Picked up a hot pair of knee high boots as well, and my darling husband, always thinking of me, went off by himself and picked me up a new can opener and a metal strainer. (which i sorely needed! What a sweetheart.) 

So then Sunday, we slept in, as we always do. It is so nice to have church at 12:30 now rather than 9am... although afterwards you dont have much of an afternoon left. Come January we will rotate back to the 9am meeting though, but that is nice because then the rest of the day is yours. So anywho, we only went to Sacrement meeting and then took off to Nampa to mom-in-laws to put in some alundry before we had to be at my parents for my "party". We went to my parents wehre my dad had an awesome homemade mexican spread (he lived in Mexico for 2 years in college and learned to cook their stuff... oooohhhh man its good!) the best part was my two aunts who I mentioned in my last post came and it was a blast! It was like old times just laughing and having a good old time. I got some cat toys, a spa basket (lotion, sprays, etc.), $50, a 2 gig chip for the Zen MP3 player that hasnt arrived yet and a gift card. It was a great time! 

And now I'm back at work playing catch up on the things I didnt get done last week because our entire server shut down last friday. 

Happy Birrrrthdaaaay toooo meeeeee.....

I dont mean to be a bit self-righteous , for lack of a better word... Its my 23rd birthday and I feel like celebrating. Actually, all I have done in the name of celebrating was buy myself a 50 cent Diet Pepsi from our vending machine before work. (which I left in my car and is probably warm now). It was sweet this morning, Zac leaves a couple hours before I do in the mornings, and before he left he came to say goodbye and wished me a happy birthday. My mom sent me an e-card that is just the cutest stinkin thing, and so did my old office manager. I feel loved.

Tonight we will probably celebrate with a grilled cheese sandwich, as I havent gone shopping yet, and I'm not sure i want to spend the money to go out to eat. Maybe we'll go to Crap in a Sack. (our most endearing term for Jack in the Box.) We are really celebrating on Sunday at my parents. My grandparents will be there, and suprisingly, both sets of aunts and uncles will be there too. Can you say awkward? These people are the source of all bad family politics, but my aunt and uncle are coming in from New Orleans to help celebrate my uncles parents anniversary, which so happens to fall this weekend. I havent seen them since I was 15. My other aunt and uncle are coming in from Spokane to see the other aunt and uncle. I havent seen them since 2004. I'm going to miss my sister, but thats ok... shes got a good excuse. :)

Zac and I decided that from now on, we aren't getting eachother gifts for birthdays, we will just go shopping the weekend of and say whatever we got is from that person. That way, we know that everything fits, they like it and there wont be any issue of "what do you want for your birthday?"

Dance went well on Wenesday! My 1st hour is a bunch of 11 year olds who dont know right from left, and my 2nd class is a bunch of gimps. Ok, ok, I am kidding, Ive got one with a severe learning disability, one with a slipped disc, one with a broken ankle, one with a club foot and two others who havent injured themselves yet. Should go well. Needless to say I am impatiently awaiting my pointe girls in November! They are my elites. 

I dont feel 23, I still feel 22... not like there is a huge difference, but I just thank God that he let me live another year. Sometimes we take the fact that God could pull the plug at any point for granted. I am thankful for all He has given me up to this point. 

Well, I'm off to el-luncho and a warm Diet Pepsi. Have a great day!

 

Sigh.

Does anyone have any good ideas to cure a bad day? Mine is going awful and I have to be at work, but I'm tearing up every 5 seconds and I would like to just go dig a hole and climb in. 

Any ideas?

And it begins again...

Ballet season is upon us folks... yes that means that tonight is my first day back teaching. This year is a bit different than last, I have 2 extra classes to put under my belt. So tonight I begin teaching a middle school intermediate ballet class and after that a highschool beginner class. I am getting nervous though.. for the first class or two the dean of the school sits in and participates. She is really nice, and I've known her since I was 5, but still. I'm nervous that I might screw up. It doesnt help that it is that wonderful time of the month when anxiety rears its ugly head moreso than usual. (TMI, I know.) 

I dont know who I've got in my classes tonight. Thursday nights I go back to teach my beloved pointe classes. (for those of you non-dance folks, thats the toe-shoe, nutcracker kind of stuff) I am really looking forward to my intermediate girls, Ive had them for 2 years already and a couple will move up from the beginner class. I am curious to see who turned 12 this past year and will be in my beginner class. My beginners, every year are just angels! Only because its new to them and the try soooo hard to get everything perfect! My intermediates on the otherhand... lol... they are young highschool. A ton of chatty cathys. But nevertheless we get down to business and they love it so much that by recital, they are awesome.

I am having a hard time this year finding a good pointe song for my intermediates. I have one I want to do, but the vision in my head is with professionals doing it. I could tone it down for them, but it is kindof fast. But last years was fast and they did great. I always give my classes a choice of what song they want to do, and I let them collaborate on moves and stuff to put in the dance. I think it makes it feel like its  more thier own creation than just going to class and having someone bark "do this, do that". So far it has had excellent results for the past 2 years. 

I am in need of new dance gear, but havent found the time or money to fund that. Not that it's imperative, but I'll deal with what I've got. 

Little updates for those who ask...

Linda - this is for you, since I dont know how to get back with you through email... and for anyone else who might be curious...

I never did say how my gall bladder flush went... well ladies and gentlemen... I can honestly say I'd do it again in a heartbeat! (actually I did... Ive done it twice so far) This is the first time in years that I can eat pizza, fried chicken, polish dogs and all that great greasy crap without it coming right back up. So about the experience in case you're wondering....

so that Thursday, all I drank was apple juice so as to let the malic acid of the apples soften the stones for easier passing. I'm not really a big fan of apple juice any more, but I'm sure it will pass. That Friday, I had oatmeal for breakfast and then some canteloupe, nothing with fat in it, and then 2:00pm hit and I was on a fast drinking only 3/4 cups of cold epsom salt water twice until 10pm. (taste treat for ya) Although I must say that after drinking that salt water, your appetite definetly goes away! So 10pm hits.... ugh... time for olive oil and grapefruit juice. The grapefruit actually takes most of the taste away, until the end. They say to drink a sip of coke afterwards to get the taste and texture out of your mouth... take it from me folks... do it. It keeps you from chucking it all back up. So then I went and laid on my right side for 45 minutes.

After that, well, holy crap, no pun intended. although By that time, all the epsom salts have removed everything from your bowels but now instead of stool, you see huge piles of little green shriveled peas. I passed 200 stones on my first try and about 300 on my next. I plan on continuing this method for awhile, since the stones were what was blocking the bile that is needed to process the food I couldnt eat. And it was getting to the point where I almost couldnt eat anything. It is a fair amount of agony for a night, but the day after when everything is passed, I had soooo much energy! I felt so good. And I still do. I'd recommend a night of feeling sick to be able to eat pizza again!

Alright, enough on that, on to that wonderful truck of ours. You'd think in this market economy that people would want to buy the smaller vehicles, a V6 rather than a V8... something with decent mileage. That is our truck. 20 mpg, V6 2 wheel drive, little work truck. Not even the businesses that use those trucks want it. So I have come to the conclusion that God doesnt want us to sell the truck, and I have come to beleive that because every time I get on my high horse about selling it, a week later we desperatly need a pickup. Sooooo.... I gave up on account of a Higher Power.

OHHHH!!! We totally SMOKED Idaho State University on Saturday!!! 49-7!! Oh and that new skybox... if you want the lower seats in the box... your looking at $12,000 per 4 people. If you want to be actually enclosed in the upper level with the restaurant and your own private suite, your looking at $41,000 per 4 people. And the thing that got me was it was PACKED on Saturday. Apparently that is what rich people look like. Here is a small link to what it looks like http://www.idahostatesman.com/260/gallery/468086-a468099-t3.html

In other news... I've learned to walk my cat on a leash... Oh boy, I know... ummm.... it is getting cold here finally. It is sooo nice!! I wish it would rain, but I will take what were getting without complaints. Well, there is a short update for ya... feel free to ask me any more questions!

What does it mean to be financially free and what purpose does money serve?

Keep falsehood and lies far from me;

give me neither poverty nor riches,

but give me only my daily bread.
9 Otherwise, I may have too much and disown you

and say, 'Who is the LORD ?'

Or I may become poor and steal,

and so dishonor the name of my God.

-Proverbs 30:8-9

When you think of being financially free, what do you think of? Lets list a few things: Owing no man anything, Being free to spend your money however you please, Having all power and control over your funds... These things are true in a sense of being "free", however, I have found that to truly be free of something, anything! is to give it to God. Think about it, when you have a burden, do you take it upon yourself to bury it within you and struggle to get the weight off? Or do you submit yourself to Him and ask Him to carry your burden that you may right yourself before Him? The latter is much easier to do, and the right way of doing things! If you really stop to think about it, God created everything we have in the world today. Without some divine inspiration, a single man could not come up with the idea to build a computer, or come up with any intelligent ideas at all. So saying that, God also created money, and thus gave it to us to use. It took me forever to figure this out. Through my studies I have found 4 purposes God gave us money for:

1) To cover our basic needs: ie: food, shelter, clothing, etc. As the proverb above states: give me neither poverty nor riches. God does not want his children to dwell in a state of poverty, as the last part of the proverb verse states Or I may become poor and steal, and so dishonor the name of my God. God allows us to use His money to provide for us and our families. This however doesnt mean that we rack up a ton of debt giving our family excessivly cushy lifestlyes, he asks that we live within our means, so that we dont become so poor we dishonor him by just trying to exist, and that we dont get so rich that the devil's world lets us forget our Dear Lord.

2) Money gives us direction from Him: Have you ever really really wanted something but ended up not being able to come up with the funds? Would that thing be frivolous in God's eyes? I have learned that when God knows we do not need something, He will make the funds unavailable to us and we need to remember to see this as an act of God, that it is not his will for us to have this thing. Too many times I have cursed aloud about why me? why cant I have what I need? When I stopped and realized that perhaps having this thing is not the best thing for me and God is the one taking care of me and my finances, it was so much easier to deal with and to distinguish between wants and need.

3) Money is provided to keep Gods charity going. THe world we live in runs on money. Those who have it thrive in the material sense, and those who dont have it, live in poverty. Then Jesus beholding him loved him, and said unto him, One thing thou lackest: go thy way, sell whatsoever thou hast, and give to the poor, and thou shalt have treasure in heaven: and come, take up the cross, and follow me. -Mark 10:21 How we utilize our money for charity is our decision. We are able to use the funds to buy winter coats for a coat drive, to buy material and make blankets for the homeless shelter, or we can give outright donations to places that need the help. I also am of the opinion that thithing is a form of charity. You are placing your funds in the hands of the church to better the fellowship you attend. However, I have found that God blesses only sincere gifts. If you give out "because I have to..." of "because my church said so", or have a slight grudge when giving your 10% tithing... those are not sincere gifts. WHen you give out of pure love as our Saviour did, you will reap the rewards of Him.

4) And finally, the gift of money shows us just how powerful God is. Have you ever had enough and then it was all taken away from you only for you to find out later that there was a big lesson in all of this? God can take and give freely, after all, He is God. When I got laid off, it was for a good reason, and although I had no idea what was going on, I kept my faith and said, "God, I may not understand your will, but I am willing to subject myself to thee." In that entire 2 months, we were 2 months behind on our bills, our BIG bills, but we never went hungry, and we never gave up on Him. Finally a job opportunity came up and I took it and within a week, things fell into place for us to move to Boise, right next to my work, and and spot opened up for Zac in the welding program at BSU. And the week after, we received such a miraculous blessing from my mother who out of the blue, just felt promptings of the Spirit to catch us up on our bills. And here we are today, we have all that we need, we are happy, and our faith has been set more in stone all due to a lack of funds. He is Alpha and Omega, He gives and takes away. He is the Lord Almighty.

Lord, please help me to remember that it is thou that hast given me money to use. Please let me remember to spend it in a fashion that would please thee and also to keep me out of debt. I humbly say this in the name of Jesus Christ, Amen.