I'll tell ya, this last week has been one of the most horrendously stressful weeks I've ever had. However thanks to the grace of God, it has been easy. Everything has fallen into place accourdingly and I really have been stressing over nothing. He truly is guiding this. I found out what was causing most of my stress too.... finding a place for my kitty. I am so attached to him. But my best bud Cecelia called and said she would take him, oh I cant tell you how the relief just flooded over me. I havent gotten that good of sleep in a week. I didnt realize that was what I was stressing over. I basically have no stress now, although I am still sad that I have to leave Stinky, I know he will be much happier at her house. She has a yard and I know she will feed him, and he will still have a warm place to sleep. Cecelia, I thank God for your awesomeness. (and Aaron. I didnt forget your other half, tell him thanks too :)So I just sent our deposit in, and Decembers rent will show up just in time. It really hasnt hit me that we leave in 1 1/2 days. It is still so bizarre to me, almost surreal. I still have my inner nagging about money and stuff, but I know that I need to trust Him, He has gotten us this far with not a hitch. I know He will get us through the rest. I am excited to be able to start keeping house though, after getting all unpacked and through a couple of paychecks, then I will start decorating and making it feel a little more like home. I am excited for that.
I do get a bit teary eyed when I think of leaving my family, but it is helping alot that my parents are so gung-ho about us going and supporting us so much and excited for us that it is giving me the strength to go without being too sad. Because they are doing that, it doesnt make me feel guilty for leaving and they are allowing me to be excited. I think it would definetly be harder if my parents were crying and "oh i wish you werent going" kind of a thing.
I am ready to start new, we were even talking about trying to get pregnant perhaps next fall or the spring after... we'll see what happens. We definetely want to get established first, and we'd like to buy a house. Again, we will see.
I thank God for all He has done for us, and for making this transition so smooth. Our prayers really have been answered. He has been praying to be able to work at the union in Vancouver, and I have been praying my little tail feathers off to be able to never work again. I kid you not, those have been our exact prayers. Every night. For a long time. God never ceases to amaze me.
