The Great Non-Depression

I got laid off today. I suppose I should have been expecting it, however I definitely wasn't expecting it so soon. So I went through the normal phases of disbelief-shock-tears-despair-dreading telling my husband-acclimation-its gonna be OK. So now we are relying on the Lawn Mowing business of my husbands which is doing marginally well considering the economy and unemployment as soon as I sign up. (what a pain by the way) I am however thankful that I was let go now when they were able to pay me rather than when the company shuts down and I wouldn't get paid.

I am a bit worried about bills. But this specific scripture keeps popping up in my mind:

Therefore I tell you, do not worry about your life, what you will eat or what you will drink, or about your body, what you will wear. Is not life more than food, and the body more than clothing? Look at the birds of the air; they neither sow nor reap nor gather into barns, and yet your heavenly Father feeds them. Are you not of more value than they? And can any of you by worrying add a single hour to your span of life? And why do you worry about clothing? Consider the lilies of the field, how they grow; they neither toil nor spin, yet I tell you, even Solomon in all his glory was not clothed like one of these. But if God so clothes the grass of the field, which is alive today and tomorrow is thrown into the oven, will he not much more clothe you —you of little faith? Therefore do not worry, saying, ‘What will we eat?’ or ‘What will we drink?’ or ‘What will we wear?’ For it is the Gentiles who strive for all these things; and indeed your heavenly Father knows that you need all these things. But strive first for the kingdom of God and his righteousness, and all these things will be given to you as well.
“So do not worry about tomorrow, for tomorrow will bring worries of its own. Today’s trouble is enough for today (Matthew 6:24-34). What comfort!!!

Our Heavenly Father knows our predicaments and apparently didnt want me to be in the Real Estate Field anymore. I shall not worry because my Shepherd accounts for all of His sheep and tends to all of His flock, never leaving one behind. I am proud to be a sheep.

I've already applied for a bunch of positions, still more I will tackle tomorrow. We're still looking for Zacs job too. We may be having to relocate to Salt Lake, because apparently the church liked my skills and resume they are reviewing me for positions there.. and not just $8 an hour positions. Im talking I've-never-made-so-much-money-in-my-life-positions.

It would be an ideal thing financially. But we are mobile and if God wants us in SLC, then we will go. (crossing my fingers?) I'm so proud to be a sheep.

Discipline is a virtue

I've got to get disciplined. I read these blogs of people who force themselves to joyfully get up at 6am every morning and do devotionals. And who study constantly and really sincerely give such a huge effort to bring Him into their lives. Anna and Miriam at Maidens of Worth are such great examples of this!! And then here I am... waking up 5 minutes before I have to leave for work, sometimes having a little time to say a prayer...constantly re-setting my alarm in the morning, browsing the internet when I should be tending to chores or spiritual matters.

Sometimes I think that peoples surroundings are what make it easy. I have no doubt its easier to feel Him in the middle of nowhere. But that shouldn't make a difference. Also I know it would be easier to get into a routine if I didnt have to be somewhere every morning at 8am, I wouldnt mind as much to get up early knowing that I've got the whole day ahead of me to get up early study and worship and still get things done around the house and even have time for a nap.. Like this past Saturday.

But I know those things shouldnt matter. I go to work at 8am and arrive home at 6pm. Usually I go to bed at 10, so that gives me 4 hours to do things. Even so, that should be no excuse for not setting aside time for Him. My husband and I fellowship together nightly over scriptures and prayer, but I am pretty awful at setting time aside for myself and God. Anna at Hope Road is currently helping me with devotionals and what to do and I've discovered they are quite easy and nice to do and really are a joy to do. I can stay up a half hour later to do them, its not that much of a sacrifice. To be disciplined as a disciple of Jesus. Im working on it.