I am anticipating today as being a hard day. Work was alright, Im talking emotionally. There has been a feud between 3 members of my family, 3 very close-to-me members. It has been raging for 6 years. And in those 6 years, there has been hardly any speaking of this feud, only covering up of feelings on one side and both sides believing they are right. And I am in the middle as mediator. I purposely didn’t get into Law specifically so I wouldn’t have to mediate domestic issues. Load of crap.
Now that Pierce is in the picture and it directly involves his relatives, not to mention in affects my general happiness and piece of mind… it is time for this feud to end. So that means that I get to make the preliminary phone call to discuss the matter at hand and to then schedule the conference call that will settle the deal. The only issue after that is whether or not one party gets the answer they want. If they do I will be the happiest most ecstatic girl in the world. If not, well there goes Christmas joy for me forever. Not to mention joy in general. I will probably take up drinking again. So I get to do some manipulating for myself because dammit Im not allowed to be happy unless a specific someone gets their way.
Time to bury the hatchet. I wish it were as easy as digging a hole, throwing the so called “hatchet” in there and then fill in the hole and be done with it. But will either side let it go? Noooooooo. I understand both sides reasoning’s, and both are justified in a way to believe what they will. However, when I am now being manipulated into being mediator, (I realize I have a choice not to, however that wont benefit me in anyway and probably make the situation worse if I don’t step in.)
I am just hoping that I will get both parties to agree to a phone debacle instead of when we go back to Idaho (Christmas) because I really would like to have a nice Christmas. Im so irritated with both parties its not even funny. If this doesn’t go well I would seriously like to consider a beer. Or three.
