Ever had that feeling that you've been through it all before? No, not deja vu... that irritating feeling of routine. I've done the same thing (job) for 2 years now... and while I do thank the Lord that I am employed and it is still a very nice place to work, I keep finding myself having to bite my tongue quite more often than I used to. I find that I am always tired and instead of being indifferent about waking up each morning at 6am, I am starting to feel those great negative thoughts creep into my head while being stuck in the routine 1-hour traffic jam with sun glare down the freeway. I am finding that I am stressed more often than not and getting the beginning of a migraine is just part of the daily routine. It seems as though people are nagging me, however I am aware that it could and probably is just my state of mind that is percieving it as nagging.I realize I need to give this to God, but dang it...im tired and would very much like to end this circle-going, but the only thing that would keep me from not working is a million dollars so my husband and I both didnt have to work, or kids. We decided I need to be a stay at home mom when the time comes.
Right now I suppose I just need to pray for strength and probably go to bed earlier.
However I do give my thanks to Him that he has given me this job as means of providing for my family as well as giving me something to do. I am very greatful that I am able to be in a place where the staff is awesome and the rest of it isnt nearly as bad as my last job. And yes I do have a migraine while writing this.
