The suspense is killing me.

I dont even like suspense movies, so as you might imagine, suspense in real life is absolute torture. I dont know if our guy is going to offer or what he will offer on the truck, so I cant go get approved for the loan for the difference, but I need to find out if we approve before he offers so I dont have to tell him "oh sorry we cant approve to give you the title". Which means that I need to get ahold of my parents to see if they will cosign but they are the hardest people to get ahold of in the universe so needless to say the suspense here is killing me. Arg. And then someone gave us another option of going to the huge used car sale at the fairgrounds where they "work magic" on people with bad credit and are upside down in the loans, so we would trade in for a car and have lower payments and it would be easier to sell a car, but we have a potential buyer for the truck so i dont want to give that up and end up with another car. Goin stir crazy here.

Pep Talks and Truck Sales

*** This is a view from the park in the town we are trying to move to***

So thank you Anna at Hope Road once again for being an inspiration... she posted some audio from a Christian conference New Attitude (I guess its a southern thing... never heard of it in the Pacific Northwest...) that was a perfect pick me up, in fact, I listened to it twice since yesterday! Now I'm not used nor am privy to sermons that are theatrical and emotion-packed and loud, but I put my reservations aside and tuned out the rising and falling of the speakers voice and just heard the message he was giving. It really was what I needed to hear.

It talked about specifically Psalm 42 and your own self/emotions and how God comes into play with it. Its an interesting study. It also talked about talking to yourself rather than listening to the voice in the back of your head. You are able to talk yourself into anything really, why not talk yourself in to being worthy of the kingdom of God? So I tried last night when I was getting a little down in the dumps and gave myself a little pep talk, reminding myself of Gods promises and such and after that I found it was easier for me to pray. Gonna continue on trying this.

Now on to an Alaska note... well... it feels like the timing is right. When I did the math on how much we could save if this guy were to buy our truck, I got a good, warm feeling that Alaska was closer to being attainable. So now we have to find out how much he is willing to give for it, and then find out if we are able to get a loan to pay off the title or if we need a co-signer. I am hoping to try to talk my parents (with IMMACULATE credit) will co sign such a small amout. I have a feeling something will work out... I just need to have faith. And another pep-talk.