Lately I've been pondering something... are getting into your 30's better than being in your 20's? Is there really that much of a maturity gap? Obviously I understand there is a good 10-someodd years between the two to get settled, but does life really get better as you get older? Im not sure why Im pondering this... So far im just not thrilled with my 20's. I still feel too young. I still feel too close to highschool. So far I think I might be the only one I know who isnt afraid of turning 60. Heck, I'll be happy to leave my 20's behind and tradea bit of youth for a little more wisdom and maturity. Even back in middle school I always said I looked forward to getting older and wiser...
However, I do realize that the quality of life you live depends on how you live it, so if you are still bringing the bad habits of your 20's to your 30's, and then 40's and so on...well I suppose then you have found eternal youth. But I dont want that. I want to change. I want to grow. I want to become a wealth of knowledge of things that I suppose perhaps dont really apply to my generation at this present time. It just seems that the older you get, and if you apply your wisdom and maturity that you've gained along the way... life just gets more relaxing. Or perhaps it is just that you learn to not worry about every little pitfall and downturn as much as when you were younger.
I am looking forward to expanding my knowledge of Him as well in my coming years. I know by my 30's I will obviously not know everything, but I may be wiser in the word. And perhaps if I can understand that better, perhaps I will be able to relax and remember more often of who is really in charge and not take the 18 year olds view of "I can do everything by myself."
I am looking forward to planning a better financial future for my family. Whether I work or Zac works doesnt matter, what matters is that I am in charge of things and I need to start thinking like Im not 23 still. I get such a comfortable feeling when I ponder the road ahead when we are older and more relaxed and the REALLY IMPORTANT things that are taking precedence now really aren't all that important. I realize with every decade there are things that go wrong, issues that need addressing, and nothing is virtually perfect. But perhaps with the knowledge gained from 23 to 30... perhaps life will seem just that much more sweeter than before.
I am looking forward to living the kind of life style my parents have. Yes, they are in their 50's, and it took them quite awhile to get there, but if I can have that lifestyle too by the time Im 50, bring on the 30's and 40's. I know my parents are more the wiser for it, and they really havent been better off or more relaxed since I was born. As much as I would like that sort of lifestyle to get here RIGHT NOW... I am willing to wait and perservere. And perhaps if I perservere hard enough... perhaps I can knock 10 years off of that.
Lord, I ask thee to please bless me with the perserverance to hang on to what is good and right, and to be able to be more diligent in mine and my family's life. I ask that as I go through the trials and tribulations thou gives me, that I might remember that thou art there and that thou shall prevail and I will come up alongside thee victorious. I ask thee Lord these things humbly in the name of Jesus Christ, Amen.
