So today was day 1 of job interviewing. I had one at 10:30 today at Modern Day Mommies, a site from women for women offering women empowerment services. (by that I mean dula's, healthcare, perinatal care, etc.) It turned out to be a position in sales, which wouldnt be so bad, but the company is so green, and it is commission, and I need a job now that is either salary or hourly. So that didnt work out. The lady who heads the company is super nice though, I'd love to work for her. Perhaps down the road.
Monday is my other interview at Miyamoto International, Structural & Earthquake Engineers. As an admin. assistant, not an engineer. So far this position sounds more like what I am used to and where my skills lay. If they offer it to me I am going to take it. Minimum wage is 8.95 here, and they are offering $12-14 DOE. $14 an hour would be nice.
I have plastered Vancouver with resumes... exhausting. So I have not ceased praying that the Lord would bless us with a second income, be able to pay off some debt. Not that we have a lot, but it is more that I would prefer to have. I have been really gung-ho after Christmas to find a job and was pretty upset about not finding one last night. So I prayed, and fasted yesterday, and prayed some more. And during the last prayer I heard, "Is it really all about money to you?"
Huh??
Then I heard "You're not looking at the big picture."
What big picture??? (yes I was frusterated at this point.)
So I decided to start looking at the blessings I have. Ok Lord, I said, I have a wonderful husband who has a good job. I have a roof over our heads. I always have food sufficient for our needs.
The small voice continued "Keep going. Your still missing the big picture."
Okaaaayy..... YOU got us up to Vancouver on your will. YOU provided us with everything we need to be safe and comfortable.
And then it came to me, flooding over me. I have HIM. He who cares so much for us, that He knows of our troubles and our stresses, and even though I am praying to Him, I was still only praying for things that I need in this material world. I needed to pray for the spiritual, to thank Him for being such a loving God. To know that I am a child of His and that when I am in tune with His flow, that the things I need to accomplish will come to pass because I let my guard down and let Him do His thing.
Dang guards. I get so caught up in the whole mess of the human world that even though I never doubt Him, I still forget that he is my lifeforce and the drive behind my life.
So needless to say, I am a bit more relaxed, still a little frusterated and stressed, but not nearly as bad. Tonight we are going to a church get together, which maybe will get my mind off of things. Please pray for me.
