My friend and her husband are in Italy for a week. My parents are away at a wonderful hotel in the mountains. I'm at work trying to tackle my job as well as our late admin. assistants job and trying to figure out how in the world we are going to be able to move to Alaska by October. I know our little 3 day vacation to Salt Lake will be a nice little getaway, but then I have to come back. I wish sometimes I had a million bucks. That would pay off our truck, get us a house wherever we wanted and then we'd bank the rest and not worry about anything.
I know that God is with us and that I must trust in His timing. I know that I should not worry for the future because God holds our lives in His hands, protecting us as long as we keep Him by our sides. Yet I am only human and I am overwhelmed and stressed and a little blue. I dont know which way is up and my brain is so foggy I feel like I cant walk in a straight line let alone think in a straight line. I am having a difficult time remembering things that need to be remembered. I need a break. I need a vacation where I can just sit on a dock and watch the water sparkle in the sunlight, where I can enjoy a cup of early morning tea with my husband and take a sunrise bike ride through God's vast, beautiful wilderness, where I dont have to move if I dont want to, or think if I don't want to or do anything at all for anybody except to serve my husband and God.
Lord help me get through my blues and to continue to remember to pray when I am overwhelmed. Praise be to thee that you hold my hand as I walk. Amen.
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