Its finally hitting me.

I broke down last night. I couldnt hold it in any more. With all the stress an angst and things, put on top of saying goodbye to all my dance girls... I bawled. For a few hours. I still am tearing up thinking about leaving my girls. It's like all of them were my own children I am leaving. And especially giving up my pointe girls to someone new... Im so protective over them, it is so hard to see someone else teach them. I just hope she gives them the freedom to have fun with pointe and not drill seargent them as if they were at the Royal Ballet of London. They dance for themselves and thier families, not world wide audiences. I explained to her that I let the girls help with alot of the choreography and stuff... Oh I'm worrying too much. They will be fine, and I suppose they will get used to a totally different teaching style. I will miss them so much. 

Lisa (the head teacher) said she would give me addresses to keep in touch. I'm excited to send everyone postcards. 

So that emotional experience on top of trying to get all this moving stuff in order finally caught up with me. So aside from puffy eyes and I'm completely exhausted, it felt good to cry. Although I fear I am not done crying. We have 5 days until liftoff. We aren't even staying for Thanksgiving dinner. It is really hard to leave for me around the holidays. My family is a very traditional holiday family, so it is difficult. Not to mention I will miss my grandpas 80th birthday party. I'm just overwhelmed. I am really hoping the lady that is coming to look at the apartment will take it. (Please God?) 

Ok, so anyways, let me finally get to how this all happened. Backtracking here... ok.. so my husband was in the welding program at BSU, this was his 3rd month. His teacher had a former student who manages? the welding fab in Vancouver who discovered my husband and was impressed and then called us and offered him a job. Thats it. It couldnt have happened any quicker. It is amazing pay and somehting that Zac really likes to do. I wont have to work if I dont want to, but I  will until I get the credit card paid off. Coffee shop or a book store would be nice. 

We got to spend a little time at my moms house last night, which was nice. Im going to miss them so much. I'm still waiting to hear if we approved for the apartment I applied for... I hope to hear today. WHen I hear we have an apartment up there and someone to take over ours here, I think I might be able to relax. I havent even had time to call everyone and tell them. Holy crap I am tired.

Oh ya, and I am trying to find a place for our cat. If you know anyone in the Treasure Valley who wants a cat, let me know. Hubs says we cant take him. My work is interviewing for my posisiton today. She is nice. Ok I have to get back to work now, which is another thing on top of all of this, working 8 hours and trying to wrap things up here too. I think I deserve a break after this move.