im alive

Its been a few days since I last posted... have a great reason... Im employed. I did get the job and it is a bit tiring. But a job nonetheless. Just trying to balance work and my disaster of a house. 

In baby news, Im 9 weeks along... girl name so far: Sonja Elise...boy name so far: Jacob Michael. Subject to change at any time, though probably not. 1st ultrasound is next week, get to hear the heartbeat. 

I dont have a ton of time for writing right now, but just wanted to stick my head in and say hi and Im still here.

When frusterations mount. (or rather, me venting)

I cant get ahead of myself. My house. My chores. My thoughts. Ive got things to do, choices to make and for some reason or another they all pile up on me at once when I have absolutley no time to sort through them. Today I go sign my hiring papers, Zac got paid, and now I have to decide whether to pay the truck today and get enough food to get by for the week, or pay the truck a day late next week and buy decent food for the week. I also have a kitchen to clean up, a mysterious blue envelope to find (i hope its in the closet!), quickbooks to settle out, call the tax guy to see if we have to file in Idaho or Washington, and many many growing piles that I havent had the time to put away or go through. My bathroom needs a deep clean and the bedroom is growing clothes. Not to mention I have to fit in my workout, and be ready for hubs when he comes home in a bad mood so I can cheer him up and be the rock of the household as per usual. Oh, and I have to take the movies back, fill out an exit application for Zacs student loans and somehow find money for a brake job before my wheels fall off.

All this on top of being pregnantly fatigued which is driving me mad. The temple is closed until the 24th for maintenance, I havent really had time to do devotions, not like I've really felt very pious enough to do them. I cant fast because Im pregnant, I totally spaced family home evening which is supposed to take place on Monday, but I forgot and have been forgetting every single day since. So I am calling quits on that until next monday. Then there is always the very real fear of Zac getting laid off, every Friday it seems that some rumor goes around his work that they will be laying off 20 people this week, etc.  Which most of the time doesnt happen, but that company is very good at layoffs if they dont like you or if they see you arent working hard. Which is a little bit of a catch-22 there because they are very slow right now so everyone is scrambling for even the most menial something to look busy. Which in turn brings my hubby home in not so great moods and there seems I can do nothing really to help him other that remain cheerful and happy and steadfast all the while I just want to cry and be down myself because I havent accomplished what I wanted to that day and Im tired and and I dont have anyone to tell me that its going to be ok or to get me a cup of tea.  

And I know I cant stress out because that would stress out the baby and thats not good apparently. in a sense, I guess its a good thing that I am having to be cheerful all the time, it does tend to keep me out of bad moods, but still. And I dont know how I am going to wing getting anything done when I start working. Hubs said he'd help me out, I appreciate that! I will get off at 4pm, so that adds an hour to my after work schedule.  Sorry for the venting but I needed it. 

My dishwasher agitates me.

Does anyone else have this problem?? I have a VERY loud dishwasher, the cycle is quick, but during the cycle I can hardly hear myself think. I am not a loud noise person, never have been. So when this thing has to go off, I get really agitated and anxious. I dont know if it is just because I really enjoy my quiet little space and when it is on it interferes with my thoughts, or perhaps it is a noisy reminder of all the things I havent accomplished that day. The latter sounds about right, when Ive got the dishwasher on, that means that I probably still have one more load to do, and usually that goes hand in hand with cleaning the rest of the house. Either way it is still annoying. 

Doc appt. went very well yesterday.  I love Kaiser!! What a great medical place. My doc was great too. Zac came in with me, we got to ask all our burning questions. Oh and have a PAP. Yeah. Fun. Oh and I can have the TB test. So now I am scheduled for blood work, an ultra sound and another doc appt all before the 18th of March. Busy. 

How should I tell the new job I just got hired on to?

Cheesy-poofs and a new job?

Well, I am back from my pee test. Apparently Im hired! (Yippee!!) Except for the fact that I have to take a TB test, mandatory for being hired. Soooo....Im going to ask the doc tomorrow about it. I think that if they have to inject a little in the skin, then I probably wont get the job. But if they do a blood draw, then I am fine. Again, I will talk to my doc. Im keeping my fingers crossed, perhaps if they want to do the injection, they will let me find my own doctor to do the blood draw.

So after that, I ran my errands. Post office, only to tell me that the package I got a "missed package" slip for is actually at the front office of my apartment building, and has been all weekend!! What a pain. Then to Freddies to buy enough granola bars for hubby to get through the week, and  a sandwich for a starving pregnant lady. (ie: me) Then on to Trader Joes, I dont mind that place too much, it just always smells like old cheese. We get our tea from there, and while I was there, not being satisfied by a sandwich came upon these cheesy poofs. Ive eaten almost all the bag, they are sooooo gooood!!!! Now I just need a ginger ale to finish it off.... hmm.. forgot about that part. O well. 

Good news, I hope.

So good news has come my way... at 9am this morning I was woken up by a call from the lady I had interviewed with last week to come in and take a drug test and fill something out. This doesnt mean I have the job yet, just that I qualified to make the final cut. I have to go in at 11, so I guess my errand will get done early since I will be out. 

Anniversary #3 for hubs and I are coming up Saturday! Weve been together for 9 years, 3 of which are married years. Im not sure what to do, usually we just stay in and I go all out with dinner and last year I think we rented a movie. Perhaps I'll do steak and scallops this year... I'd do sushi with him, but I cant eat it until after Child X is born. 

I got to talk to my best bud Cece yesterday, she is loving mommy-hood, and my pregnancy couldnt have come at a better time! Now I've got someone who just went through everything, so I can wrack her brains for her secrets... bwwaahhaaahahaaha. My mom is a good resource too, but she had my sister 19 years ago, so she doesnt remember much. Not to mention she is waaaaay taller and has a different bone structure than I do, so I cant compare anything there.  

Ive defenitly got a case of the pregnancy brain though. Its like all switches have been turned off. Like posting this week and last... Brain. Just. Wasnt. Working. 

Well I have to go get dressed and stuff, so perhaps tomorrow I will have something interesting to write about. 

For the Un-Valentines

We dont celebrate Valentines day. No, it isnt for religious reasons, my husband just doesnt like it. And not to mention our anniversary is 7 days later... so that would mean 2 gifts.... hmmm... Im getting slighted here, no? lol

No, I have feelings of animosity towards Red and Pink day too. Perhaps because I know we just dont celebrate it. Although the funny thing is that even though we dont "celebrate" it, my husband always does something romantic for me on that day. Way to confuse a girl right? 

I always end up sneaking around and doing something for him for V. day. Today I am planning to make heart shaped sugar cookies. I hope I can find a decent frosting recipe. Ya know like the ones on christmas cookies your neighbors give you, and the frosting is hard and stays on the cookie? I have yet to figure that one out. 

 I am happy to report we are back to the land of the living and I can now start planning for this week. Joanns is having a sale on Monday, I plan to pick up some fleecy stuff and patterns for Child X and perhaps some more yarn. Today is the blessed food shopping day!! Pot Roast here I come!! We have been eating well for the past week, but it has been very cheap things over and over like potatos. And eggs. Well, eggs for hubby. And thankfully I had bought chicken breast in bulk and froze them, so hubs would have dinner and lunches. So now I am overjoyed to go actually get somethings with flavor!!! Oh have you ever tried pizza from Leonardis in Winco? Best pizza ever!!!

I am anxiously awaiting a phone call also. Wednesday I had a job interview as a housekeeper at a really ritzy retirement home. It is so nice inside!! The interview went well, and my interviewer said she had a few people to talk to also, but said she would call whether good or bad news. I would be appreciative of either. I hate it when you never hear back from a company you interviewed for. 

I have my doc appt on Wednesday. Im excited to get the ball rolling. I suppose there is a little comfort in having a  doctor finally.  Well, if I am going to get anything done, I better go do it. have a great day!

MIA

I know I've been MIA for a few days, but I just havent felt up to doing much. Every morning I have a routine of things I read on the internet, and one of them just happens to be the comic strip For Better or For Worse by Lynn Johnston. This was todays strip and I couldnt agree with it more. Yes I am greatful for all the rights women have, that we arent drug around by the hair when a man wants something, but really... we are female. Not male. Our bodies were made to look good in dresses, our features are softer and more gentle, and our maternal instincts do  show up at one time or another. In my opinion, if women were supposed to be exactly like men, why would He give us such wonderfully different gifts? Anywho, I am in no mood to research this topic and write an essay, I just got back from working out and it almost killed me. 

I am 7 weeks along. YAY! And still tired. And chicken is my worst enemy unless it is a McChicken sandwich or a Spicy chicken sandwich from Wendys. I dont know why. I even made chicken burritos for my hubby last night, and it had so much stuff in it my husband said you couldnt even taste the chicken, so I tried a bite and puked immediatly. I hope this goes away soon. 

I havent much to say today, I am pretty tired, so I will leave you with that rambling thought and a note saying IM STILL HERE! Have a wonderful day.

13 minutes of Reassurance

I love this sermon I found on sermonaudio.com. It is the burdens of life, but gives such great reassurance in our Lord Jesus Christ, I've listened to it I dont know how many times. Just push the play button, what can be better than 13 minutes of being reassured?

A life on hold.

Holy crap. i did it!! After 20 minutes on hold with Kaiser, they finally figured out where my insurance papers were and were able to issue me temp. coverage so I could make an appt!!! YYAAAYYY!!!! I am so thrilled. I am ready to get this doctor stuff up and going as this is our first child and I freak out on some days that Im not doing the right thing. 

So now i'm on hold to make an appt. Sigh. it never ends does it??

OK. I have an appt. FINALLY. Talk about making mountains out of molehills. 

Ok enough of that, I got this emailed to me, so heres my answers:

Hearing

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the hum of my noisy fridge
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Seeing
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a mess that needs attention
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Smelling
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Oatmeal.

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Praying

that our baby is doing well
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Thanking

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hubby for the flowers - again

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Reading

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what to expect when youre expecting 
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Listening

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to sermonaudio.com

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Cooking

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nothing right now.

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Cleaning
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ha. ha. ha.

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Tending

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the tadpole baking in me

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Eating

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oatmeal.

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Drinking

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water. lots and lots of water

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Wearing

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pjs. 

Nothing says welcome to pregnancy better than a hard boiled egg.

(they are laughing at me, I know it.)

Ugh. I think I just had my first food aversion. Hard boiled eggs. I just made a wonderful spinach salad with cheese and avacado and veggies and then put a hard boiled egg in. What a way to ruin a salad. Which Im bummed about because eggs were my favorite part of the salad pre-pregnancy. 

I took out most of the egg, but as it was crumbled in there, I just had to grin and bear in and then suck down a handful of grapes to get the taste out of my mouth and hopefully keep me from puking. Stupid eggs. 

On a better note, I have the most awesomest husband in the world!! Yesterday he suprised me with a bouquet of flowers just because. I love getting flowers!!! It was so sweet of him to do that for me, not to mention they look great in my kitchen. 

Better Late than Never...

In December, a lovely lady from Tracy's Corner gave me a bloggy award for liking my blog! Yay! Thats my first! Ive had it in my cache since then though, and was having issues putting it up on my blog, so I figured it out and now I am awarding 5 blogs I love!

So here are the winners for my pick of awesome blogs! Winners, just click the piture and save it to your computer so you can put it on your blog, and then choose 5 more people you would like to award.

1. Anna at Domestic Felicity for letting us in on Jewish life and her wonderful new family!

2. Jenni at One Thing for loving life and having wit and humor that knocks me off my chair somedays.

3. Celia Hall for her honest posting and a small link to back home

4. Brin at Messy Thrilling Life for perservering in hard times and still being able to write wonderful things

5. The lady at Destination 1940 for giving me a glimpse into a simpler time. I love the old photos she posts too!!