So what have I been doing for 2 weeks??

I have been dying a thousand miserable deaths...that's what. Ok fine, it hasnt been that bad. Two days after I shipped the boys off I got the worst cold EVER! I stayed in bed for most of that Saturday, ALL of Sunday and thankfully Monday was Presidents day so I got to spend that day in bed too. I suppose it was a slight blessing being alone for this illness...normally when I get sick, so do the boys...and that means I dont get time to be sick because I am administering to them. The sucky part was having to make my own soup...my own taco bell runs...no one to talk to...no hugs... :( I am feeling much better, I still have a slight sinus infection and a cough, but I will gladly take that over what it had started out as.

I am so lonely. I cant wait for Wednesday night to hurry up. I have done pretty darn well alone for 2 weeks - but I am attributing my success to the fact that I was in a coma for the better part of it. I also singlehandedly trashed my house. Mostly because when I was at the peak of my comatose state I just threw things and they landed and there they stayed. I started cleaning yesterday...almost done.

My sister's boyfriend's dad and step-mom live 20 minutes away from me so her and her man came up this weekend to visit them, and her being awesome, decided we needed to go out to breakfast. I had so much fun. She is contemplating moving up here some time next year...I would love it if she could. Not only would I be able to see her more often but we would have a built in babysitter! I wonder how she would do with the rain tho...we're kind of a specific kind of people up here....

I am so happy too - I will get paid this pay period! I was a little worried...cash flow at work sometimes takes its dear sweet time since we are a service-based business...Just got word that one of our big vendors approved the upfront payment and I will be able to pay my rent on time! So happy. :) This is the first time in our married lives that we have been able to put money into savings and actually keep it there...after this pay period we will have $1000 to our name that thankfully doesnt need to be used! I love financial stability. I just wish I made a little more. I know I will once my schooling for my Licensed Certified Public Bookkeeper is over...but that wont be until sometime next year.

Some days I wonder what it would be like if we were a different religion. I dont plan on changing my current on, but its always been a pondering of mine. Religion is such an interesting topic to me, I still would like a PhD in Theology...I love seeing the way people do things...I had thought to visit some different services the past couple Sundays...but seeing that I was the walking plague....I didnt want to invite an exorcism.

I have a lot to do today at work and my motivation is slowly ticking away...it is especially hard because today is the sunniest its been in a LONG time. I woke up 40 minutes before my alarm because my room was bathed in sunlight! I got excited and then got outside and had to chip the ice off my car. Seems more like Thanksgiving weather than almost March weather...I would have loved to have teh day off. Hiking, running errands, cleaning...whatever...its so gorgeous out. Unfortunatley we dont have another Monday holiday until Memorial Day I think.

So I've decided to start a bible study. I read the book of Acts once...very enlightening. And not so much in a spiritual sense, but as in the history!! You always revert back to the historical timeline you learned in school and dont ever realize that when Rome was at its peak that the rest of the world was living life as well. Or historical characters you hear the name of but never put together as being alive at the same time. Fascinating. It really makes history come alive when you can piece the world together like a jigsaw puzzle. At this point I am more interested in studying the Bible for its historical value than anything else..but I think that understanding the history of the timeframe that all this stuff took place, New Testament particulary, it really makes the story of Jesus and the Apostles and all that come alive a little more and puts a more solid foundation behind all the church-y stories you grow up with. So....why not.

I also tried and failed at celebrating Lent. Apparently I dont have the wearwithall for it. (yes i am sure that is spelled wrong) Ive never celebrated Lent, I only just understood it as of 3 days ago listening to a sermon at a Catholic Mass on Catholic Radio...it is amazing how when you stop to learn about other peoples traditions and they reasons behind why they do things that the world starts making a little bit more sense. Lent is a great tradition, I really like the idea behind it..however I dont think I am ready to celebrate it yet. It is more than just seeing if you can live with out chocolate or fast food for 40 days...it is a commitment to a change that shouldnt be taken lightly...and Im not ready for that yet. Good thing its not really practiced in my church.  In fact I am not sure anyone in my church really even knows what Lent is...it seems the majority of people only know what they were taught in Primary and then only what the church teaches. No one cares to find out about any of the others. And Im not saying to search for another church, but to know what is out there, it really does make the world seem a little less crazy.

I reallllly overdid it yesterday on my carb intake...I have been doing so well and feeling so good...but I was cleaning all day yesterday and the only thing that sounded good was something with a lot of cheese. And what goes best with a lot of cheese???? PASTA!! So I went and done it. I ate pasta. And I enjoyed every bite. That is, until about 10 minutes after I was done. I dont tolerate wheat very well....I spent the rest of the evening in a Purgatory of extreme bloatedness, swollen fingers and toes and a very upset stomach. Was it worth it??? Heck yes. But it will be a long time before I submit myself to the call of pasta.

I had so many good ideas and plans for the two weeks I had alone...stupid cold. I also have been having anxiety dreams about moving back to Idaho. I have this subconcious fear that since all our family is there and all of Zac's good friends are there that he will go for a trip and decide he wants to move back. These stupid dreams have been after me since he left. The only reason I can see us ever moving back there is if my parents were ever ill or dying or something. But that's it. Idaho is nice to visit...but that's all.

I need a beach trip. With a hotel or beach house included. I would like a vacation. But I dont think I get vacation time for a long time. Poo. Oh well...good thing the beach is only 2 hours away.

I get to do taxes tonight. I sure hope we get a refund...we have never not...I guess we'll see :)

Ok, well I think Ive written enough...ta ta for now!