Another one of THOSE days

Some days I wonder how I am able to do it all. I am a wife, a mom, a choreographer, a dance teacher, a mentor, a bookkeeper, and office mother, the office manager, the in-house nurse, and the list goes on. When things run smoothly, I love it. When some tiny thing tweaks my lifestyle, I dont like parts of it so much.

Today I was doing fine until being patronized like I was 5 years old. It, I am sorry to say, has thrown my attitude in the pits and now I am stewing. And it is really difficult for me to stop stewing because of my growing irritation. It certainly does not help that I am hungry..

I hate it wehn people make me feel stupid. Then I REALLY dont want to do anything for them. Its like, I do sooo freakin much for you and you treat me this way? I may as well dye my hair blonde and get implants and just sit and look pretty all day for how much you just made me feel worth. I know there are scriptural verses that will contradict my feelings, but I also know that God made us to have feelings and I dont think that it is abnormal to stew. So I am going to sit and stew over a cup of tea and wait for it to fizzle out. It always does...and I've found that it is healthier for me to sit and actually feel than to do what comes naturally which is to bottle it up.

I got a card that has a plan to read the Book of Mormon in 6 months. I want to for the sake of doing it. Plus I've never actually gotten through the entire thing. There is some part of me that wants to. But then the other half does not want to for a few reasons that I will not go into on this blog.

So I went to lunch just now...I feel slightly better aside from the fact that i am still hungry. I am trying to lose 10 pounds and I really just want a guacamole bacon burger from Red Robin...but instead I had pepperoni, cheese 3 stalks of peanut butter and celery and some tea. Dinner better be awesome. Which I know it will be...Z always makes amazing food. I wonder if we have the stuff for Pad Thai...

Ok I am done venting.

Busy Busy Busy. March was defenetly the month of overload. I pretty much had a nervous breakdown all of march. I had to physically sit down and write out everyhting I am responsible for in my life and wheedle it down to the necessities because my life has just been getting to be too much like SuperWoman's. I am not SuperWoman by the way...just in case you were wondering. I gave it a shot...and all it got me was stressed out and having my boss ask if I needed to cut back my hours...(which yes..I would love to...but I'd need to get paid more to compensate for it)

And then I re-discovered a lovely blog by Glynnis Whitwer... and she had this great series of posts on clutter. I have been plagued by house clutter for awhile now and it really started bothering me lately. So thanks to her, I started getting my house in order. I started a cleaning schedule - which I've stuck to- and it feels sooooo much better. But the even better part of it was that in that series was also posts on how to de-clutter your mind and stuff. Which I needed. I am so overloaded with information and things to do that it broke me down to the point of forgetting some really important things and becoming disgruntled, complacent and lazy.

But now thanks to Glynnis - and yes I am giving her full credit for this - I have 3 organized closets, a cleaning schedule that is being used (my kitchen has stayed clean for 3 days in a row!!), my son has a clean room, I have 2 spotless and mopped bathrooms and I am able to sit on my couch and relax at night before bed in a clean living room and just veg in bliss. I am still organizing and stuff, but already in 3 days it has been miraculous.

So now that my home life and therefore my brain is being restored from the crazyness...now I am focusing on work. I bought a planner/todo notebook..it has been really helping me. Aside from the fact that now I see how busy I actually am.

And on that note I really need to get back to work. Hope yours is good!