Another one of THOSE days

Some days I wonder how I am able to do it all. I am a wife, a mom, a choreographer, a dance teacher, a mentor, a bookkeeper, and office mother, the office manager, the in-house nurse, and the list goes on. When things run smoothly, I love it. When some tiny thing tweaks my lifestyle, I dont like parts of it so much.

Today I was doing fine until being patronized like I was 5 years old. It, I am sorry to say, has thrown my attitude in the pits and now I am stewing. And it is really difficult for me to stop stewing because of my growing irritation. It certainly does not help that I am hungry..

I hate it wehn people make me feel stupid. Then I REALLY dont want to do anything for them. Its like, I do sooo freakin much for you and you treat me this way? I may as well dye my hair blonde and get implants and just sit and look pretty all day for how much you just made me feel worth. I know there are scriptural verses that will contradict my feelings, but I also know that God made us to have feelings and I dont think that it is abnormal to stew. So I am going to sit and stew over a cup of tea and wait for it to fizzle out. It always does...and I've found that it is healthier for me to sit and actually feel than to do what comes naturally which is to bottle it up.

I got a card that has a plan to read the Book of Mormon in 6 months. I want to for the sake of doing it. Plus I've never actually gotten through the entire thing. There is some part of me that wants to. But then the other half does not want to for a few reasons that I will not go into on this blog.

So I went to lunch just now...I feel slightly better aside from the fact that i am still hungry. I am trying to lose 10 pounds and I really just want a guacamole bacon burger from Red Robin...but instead I had pepperoni, cheese 3 stalks of peanut butter and celery and some tea. Dinner better be awesome. Which I know it will be...Z always makes amazing food. I wonder if we have the stuff for Pad Thai...

Ok I am done venting.