Lord, help me through this day.

It is definitely not a bad day... i just still feel defeated. And I am unsure how to stop feeling it. Its like once I feel this way then my motivation goes kaput. I keep getting told that one of my strengths is resiliency. Does it count if you are faking it? I have learned over the years that in the workplace one must smile and nod to keep their job... and now what used to be called acting is now called being "resilient". I think it needs to start raining. My disposition always improves when the weather turns.

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I have found the best radio station ever - Country Hymns!! Its a lovely station of classic hymns sung by country singers in a down-south way... I love it.

It is helping me get through the day anyways...I am still quite frustrated with my situation, now for more than one reason...but I know that God has something in the works and I just have to be patient.

I know I shouldnt be complaining, but I am human after all and I just cant stuff my emotions away. I know God is with me and working away... but I cant help but feel disgruntled at the same time.

Zac is out of town this week...we had a family friend pass away last week, so he went down to the funeral. . So this week it is me, Peepers and my sister who is babysitting while Im being frustrated at work. I miss my husband. I need a hug! Plus the house is just too quiet without him. AND he gets to play with about 14 baby kitties!! SO NOT FAIR :)

I want a kitten so bad... I wish he could mail two of them up here lol. Plus they are great company. I really miss Stinky.. but I know he is much happier on the ranch. I just feel discouraged, disgruntled, frustrated and I just want my husband to hold me. >P

On a good note, however, and I cant say too much right now...but an opportunity has made itself known today and I am going to pounce on it and see where it gets me. Hopefully it will get me out of these current feelings.